Engelskreiger Posted February 25, 2007 Posted February 25, 2007 I've been in several different relationships, and ultimately there was always something terribly wrong with the person, and I was glad It was over. This time is different. I had been dating my ex for 1 1/2 years. Our relationship was FULL of love. Early on we had our share of problems, but seemingly got over them. Over time, we started to fight alot, and both of us would wonder how much longer it would last. It was strange, almost like two separate relationships. because when we weren't fighting, things were AMAZING, but when we were we would break up or almost break up during some of the bad ones. One day, about a week and a half ago, I was battling a unusual bout of depression, and after a month of having No problems at all, I broke up with her. I refused to talk to her that night and the next morning I regretted it. Since then, she has been torn. She expressed to me that she still loves me and feels that I was the best bf she'd ever had, but it's time that we move on. We pretty much broke up 6 times in the last week. Thinking of ways that we could be apart but still hang on. More me than her, I will admit. i wanted to hang on, and she would try to lso because it hurt her. Two nights ago, we were set on staying true to our feelings yet exploring other options. I thought that we'd both go out and be ourselves and soon find our ways back to eachother arms. Well, the night before last, she went to her Ex's house to just hang out and watch TV, and he tried cuddling with her. The next day, she told me about it. She told me she felt guilty about letting him hold her, but it strangly felt good to have someone new. She said she wanted to just break for good. And although it was hard, I let her go. Yesterday, we had our first day talking as friends. it went good, but I was still a little clingy even though i wasn't letting out much of my feelings. I went out with my friends and had a breakthrough, that I really wanted to be apart (but someday when we are both better people, if our love remains that maybe we could try again) I finally got ahold of her to tell her that. It was then that i found out that she was back at her ex's. And she went there knowing she'd be forced to stay by a bad snowstorm. I was up all night thinking about what COULD be happening. This morning, i read several posts about people in the similar situatuions. I feel much better, and despite my desire to find out what happened last night. I will not talk to her. I will refuse to care. Theres my story, now here's my question. Those of you that have been in this situation, probably know how I feel. I won't lie, i love her with all my heart, and want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with her. I also realize that our relationship was headed to a bad place. i want to know if you guys can give me any advice and if you think that In time, does the relationship I lost have a chance?
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