Guest Posted February 24, 2007 Posted February 24, 2007 Hello everybody! I am a boy (20 years old) and I just had the most excruciating thing happen to me. My girlfriend said she is going to break up with me. I have never felt so gutted in my life. I have never been so sad in my life. Here is how it all started. We met while I was working as a nurse in my local hospital. This was in early december 2006. She worked in another department, but it was just behind the wall so we saw each other a few times a day. I was the only boy working there, but I didnt mind since it was work for me and all the women were mostly much older than me except for a few girls who were a few years younger than me. This particular girl, however, caught my eye during the last week I worked there. I found her picture on myspace (not myspace exactly, but same kind of site that operates in my country). During work she was quite normal, except I opened locked doors for her and helped her out with particular patients that were quite troublesome to handle alone. During break times I looked at her and I saw that she was looking at me, but immediately looked somewhere else when I looked back. On the final week of my hospital internship she announced that her internship there was also going to end on the wednesday of that week. I was disappointed since I could not see her pretty face again. On wednesday after I got home I said hi to her on her myspace and she immediately responded and gave her MSN and we talked for the rest of the day. Eventually I asked her out and she was thrilled. We arranged a date for friday. I texted to her from work and stuff like that. Friday (22nd Dec) came and we had a brilliant time. Since it was christmas, we could not see each other until monday, when we went to see a movie. From that point on things started to go very well and eventually we started to be with each other almost 24/7. We kissed and cuddled and I never felt so lucky and alive in my life. We had sex for the first time (On her request. I was stunned when she said it.) very late of January. On February 1st (my birthday) we had a little confontration, but It was my birthday so I felt like ****, but later that night we settled it and had some birthday cake. After that we still met each other every day, kissed and cuddled, made love and generally spent time together. However, a few weeks ago she started to act a little wierd. She started to be angry all the time and started to argue with me over everything. She invited me to her house everyday, but when I arrived she always started to argue and I could not even kiss her. I thought that it was just the womens thing coming at that time of the month so I let it be. She texted me still every day and told me she loved me and that she missed me. This behaviour continued until the beginning of this week when she told me that since we spent so much time together in January she hasnt been able to see her friends at all and her friend has her 18th birthday party and they are going to see a movie and stuff. She still texted me everyday that she loved me and missed me. Tonight, 24th February when me and boys were driving around town and she was going to see a movie with the girls (it was girls night), she called me that she wanted to see me and we drove to the meeting place. She was late and I stepped out of the car and walked to her while my friends listened to music in the car. She said that she has to talk to me about something serious. She has many times wanted to talk to me about serious things, but I they always turned out to be things like staying an evening with the girls instead of me and buying her cigarettes (she is 17 now, but turns 18 in March). Anyway I said to her that go ahead and say what she thinks. She said that it was serious and she wanted to talk to me tomorrow, because she is now going to the movies. Then I jokingly said "What, are you gonna leave me?" and the she said "Yeah. Things dont work out... I dont really know what I want... Blah Blah". I felt like 10 lightnings just hit me in the head. I almost died. I told her that we should talk tomorrow and went back into the car. The boys jokingly asked if she is going to leave me and I went silent. They instantly knew what was going on so everyone went silent. Eventually we headed to a bar and once we got in, I felt sick and left. I called my mom to pick me up since it was freezing and I didnt wanna walk home. While waiting for mom, I texted to her "You are breaking my heart! How did it get to this?" and no answer. Once I got home, I called her and she told me that it was her decision, but she didnt tell me why and that she had had this feeling for a few weeks already. She still didnt tell my why and she hanged up. I went into shock and I felt the adrenaline flowing through my veins. I almost started to cry, but I contained it. I just grabbed my med school book and started doing questions in preparation to the entry examination. I did for about 15 minutes before I realised that I just cant take it and came back to the computer googled for a site, which deals with love life problems and here I am. I feel like crying all the time and how I cant live without my sweet baby. I have never ever been so lonely. My heart is now in a thousand pieces. What should I do now? I want to get her back at all costs! I cant live without her! Some background: This is my first true love ever. I have never felt like this. She herself had never been in a true relationship or love. Please help me or I will surely die in the next few days. -Lauri
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