fudge_cake_89 Posted September 4, 2005 Posted September 4, 2005 to start off, this may sound really stupid to you, because when i told my friends they either laughed, or just didnt take me seriously...so please do cos i wana know what to do. When i went on holiday a few weeks ago, i kinda met a guy called phil, but i never spoke to him. from the first day till the last day, we exchanged glanses and stared into each others eyes for what seemed like ages! i felt really close to phil, and i felt incredably comfortable with him, i wasnt worried about my body, or how i looked, i was just me and i felt that he liked me for it. i felt so at ease with him, not that i was really with him, but when i felt his eyes on me, i wasnt worried about it, i didnt feel insecure or anything. Some times when he stared into my eyes, i became completely oblivious to anything around me, if anyone had said anything to me, i wouldnt have known about it. On the last day at the resort, i wrote my name, email address and mobile number on a piece of paper and ripped it out of my note book. i kept it with me at all times incase i got that chance to give it to him. in the evening the resort had organised a huge BBQ for anyone who wanted to go, and sure enough, he was there, as were my family. after the bbq there was a magician who was pretty awful, so me and my sister decided to escape and sit on the loungers by the lower pool. phil and his brother and sister, along with some people our age that were sitting on his table, decided to go and play poole on the opposite side of the pool. after 5 minutes or so i got a little cold and went up to our appartment to get a hoody, and once i had put it on, i thort i looked really cute...not in a sexual way tho. me and my sister went back down to the pool area and watched the magician for a little bit. phil and the girls were sitting infront of where i was standing and a while later i noticed phil looking all around the edge of the pool, where we were sitting previously, and then looked behind him and settled his eyes into mine. i got the feeling he liked me all holiday, but this kinda made me feel even closer to him. the next day when we got back to gatwick airport i saw him once, in the airport and him and his sister were both staring at me. my family went thru passport control and i couldnt see him following, so i gathered that i had seen him for the last time, which destroyed me. when we were outside waiting for our coach, i noticed him and his family walking towards our coach stop. just seeing him again was amazing, but i had to get on the coach before he came close enough to give him my piece of paper. when i was on the coach and it was pulling away, we just stared into each others eyes but i had to look away because it was just so depressing to watch him disappear out of my life. im not particularly shy, but in this circumstance i was...and i regret it because now i am missing him like hell, i think about him non stop every day, i keep that piece of paper in my purse incase i see him again, and im just not as happy as i used to be. i want to be able to get over him, but i liked him soo much and i dont think i will be able to. if i fall for another guy, i will feel guiltly because it isnt phil, and it should be. can any one help me, because i think i love him, but i dont think im going to see him again and its incredably depressing. im missing him so much.
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