flashy Posted November 19, 2010 Posted November 19, 2010 (edited) I've had encounters for a while or 1 night short. I'm human. have done a fair amount of dating. I also chased a girl for year that told me it was never going to happen and we wound up falling in love and were together for 4 years. She was a very good girl raised conservative. I swore I would never date anyone whom slept with me on the first night. Years later I slept with someone the first night we hung out (we new eachother previously) I wound up with her for three years. She was very good to me and devoted. Both of them were ready for marriage and I was not. That is why it ended with both. I am a grad school college student that hasnt started a career yet. Moving along I have been single for about a half a year and have flirted with girls in my grad program but never realy closed anything. I have recently fallen for someone in the program. I havent felt this way about someone since the previously mentioned girl I chased for a year. That girl was a virgin that was raised strictly catholic and the next guy she was with she married. This girl was raised conservatively as well but she is a grown women and I am intrigued because she is not only beautiful but intelligent and has a air of mystery. I don't exactly know what her past is. Well, she doesn't seem to date other guys. She seems to be a pretty good girl over all. We have hung out on an ocasion through mutual friends and eventualy went out for a drink a couple times. She enjoys my company and we have fun together. She would give an air like she would never date me and then sometimes see me talking to other girls and express jealousy. (through her body language) She is aprehensive about me which I find equaly intriguiging, she is unsure about how she feels about me. Here's the problem. In the begining she was just another girl that I never thought twice about. Now whenever I see her (yes I who am a pretty alpha dude am going to say this) I get butterflies. Fast forward to now. We've hung out together on an ocasion here and there for about a month now. Over the weekend we wnt out friday and she wound up sleeping over. She was saying that I kept trying to kiss her. I said do you want me to stop trying to kiss you? She smiled looked at my ceiling, and I said, ok then I'm not gonna stop. She started laughing. Tryed to kiss her agin when she left wound up with an eskimo kiss lol. ran into her saturday night we had fun at a party, I left to go to another one. Sunday she called me and asked me to get dinner with her. We went had a great time. Tryed to kiss her again at the end of the night, she was like I'm not sure how I feel about this. I said kiss me on the cheek then. she did. Now at this point I'm worried that maybe I scared her off by trying to kiss her again after such a great time together it made sense to me. Texted her wednsday to wish me good luck on a game show I was going to be on. She imediatly responded and said good luck! Ran into her at the library today. Sat down and talked to her we had some great convo but then the butterflies started kicking in. She started telling me about how she was going to be working on a project with a guy I know. I couldn't place the face. She said he had a deep sexy voice. Like a child I got jealous. I told her we should study together some time. She said she doesn't study well with others. Either do I but like a child I take what she said personaly. I say waht are you doing this weekend? She says her roomates might have people over tonight. She'll be at the bar we hung out at friday that we were at last week. She says she may have a house warming party saturday. other then that will be doing homework. Like a chump I sit there and wait for her to invite me and take it personaly when she doesn't. I say well I'm gonna go call me or I'll call you. She says ok. The confident guy that new this girl a month ago would have told her we're hanging out this weekend. I wouldn't have been intimidated by her. I can tell she is a girl that needs to be pursued. She's not going to take initiative and needs a guy that is confident. Maybe she doesn't think anything of me. I'm human, at some point I need resiprication right? Or am I just used to the fast girls (no judgement) that our generation is filled with and I'm being to impatient. Or does she have a closet life where she nails everything? couldn't be. lol (like I said I don't know what's right and wrong anymore) That all being said. any advice? Edited November 19, 2010 by flashy
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