How could you?

This is a letter that I am writing in need of closure to my ex.....If you want to read, go ahead....I have changed his name...

Dear Pickleweed,

It was three years ago that we met, and I was working as a waitress in my hometown, and remember who introduced us? Your buddy from your job- I pushed you off because I was married, but having a very difficult time in my relationship, and you didn't seem to mind, because you kept pursuing me. Remember the night you called me at work and you were frantic because your brother was involved in a motorcycle wreck, and I took off work to go to the Hospital with you, and this woman and her husband was there- but I didn't pay any attention to the way she looked at you because at the time I did not feel threatened.......Your brother got home and he needed someone to take care of him, so you asked me if I would, and I said yes, and my youngest son turned 4 and you showed up from work with a birthday present for him. Do you remember what it was? A mustang GT that made alot of noise.....I smiled so big on the inside, because I thought you were a great man then....I eventually left my husband for good for you. We had alot of trials during the first 3 months of being together- My family wanted custody of my children, my family disowned me for leaving my husband, and I was suffering from depression due to all of this....I know you remember...you remember how alone I felt and I always wanted to tell you Thank you for standing beside me, but really on the inside-all I wanted to do was die. We went to court and we won custody of the boys and my divorce was final.....Things were looking up so why did you start beating me? Did I deserve a broken rib on Christmas? Did I deserve to be humiliated and criticized? Did you have to beat me in front of my children? What happened to you? I know that you were having sex with the married woman...I'm not an idiot...She called your phone at least 30 times a day...I stuck with you hopeing you would change...because you said you loved me and the boys...Why did you make me have an abortion when I was pregnant with your twins? Do you have any idea how bad that has hurt me? Why did you lie to me and tell me that the married girl that you were with was just funny because whatever you said...she did....How do you treat people that away? What happened to the sweet man I met in the beginning? So I saw you back in May after officially splitting with you in March and I thought you had changed.....You changed so much that I slept with you, which was my fault and I am again pregnant with your child. The married girl I also found out, left her husband and fell pregnant also and she claims it is yours. ...I don't care...What I do care about is this baby....I'm almost 4 months pregnant and I don't want you to be daddy...I want you out of my life. My kids are scared of you and I take complete responsibility for my actions- I should have never slept with you- You never deserved me....you never deserved my children. I want you to stay out of my life....There were times that you made me happy, but the last 2 years of our relationship- you made me miserable....All I ever wanted was your acceptance and now I just want you to stay away from me and my life. I will do whatever it takes to keep this baby away from you because my biggest fear is that you could hurt this baby- You need to learn that it's not ok to hurt others and I hope and pray to God that you experience the pain like my children and I have experienced.

*hugs*

He will get his. Hopefully in the ass in prison.