Infatuated with colleague - Offshore enviroment

[AngelKing001]

Hey everyone. I´m new to this, so excuse me in advance for any cock ups!

This is quite a large text as I have quite a lot to say about this girl that works with me, who I´m completely infatuated over. I´ll get straight to it:

 

We both work in an offshore enviroment, merchant navy vessels is our area I´m a 2nd officer and she is a Safety technician, but right now we both board an ROV vessel which gives us a 14 day on and 14 day at home scheme being close to the coast navigation. We both come from the same city, which is no coincidence due to the fact that where we live is a major oil/maritime capital. We both have the same age, difference of less than a year. We travel together to depending where the vessel is, sometimes the whole day travelling, between planes and bus rides and such. I have known her only a couple of months and since we first spoke we both felt the chemistry and now the more I know her the more I´m falling in love. We share the same sence of humour, taste in music, food...pretty much everything. On my first hitch on the boat we´re at we spent nearly the 14 days together. We´d eat, watch tv and even on work hours we´d either be on the phone or up on the bridge (where I work) just talking. She has a boyfriend and I am married, but now and again she´s always talking about how depressed and confused she is in her realtionship and the fact that her boyfriend is a complete idiot and doesnt treat her right and tells me alot of personal things of her life. I have made clear my intentions, I used to compliment her alot before, tell her that I find her very beautiful, that she has a great down to earth personallity and that she can do better. I have made her laugh many times and we have spoken for hours on end. Once travelling back home I asked her what her reaction would be if I kissed her but she said it´s best not due to our freindship, and that if I did she would probably never speak to me again! However now and again she kind of stares at me and fools around in a "sexyish way". So, I decided to show her the cold shoulder for a bit, maybe she (like most women) are addicted to the attention and after a couple of days she asked me if I was feeling sad or something due to not talking to her the way I always do. I replied that I wasn´t sad at all, that I was ok, and smiled, then so did she. After that she completely shut me off..sometimes if we bump into each other around the boat we´d chat for a bit, but from my side not the same as before. She barely comes up on the bridge to see me now, unlike before she was there all the time. Anyways, the other day our favourite tv show was on, down in the tv/day room, and she called me to remind me and to meet her down there to watch it with her. I went, obviously. We laughed alot together but at the same time i´m showing my cold shoulder and playing it cool. We´re gonna be traveling together again in a week and I really want this agonizing game to end...what do i do? She has had a short term relationship with a colleague before, to which has been transferd to another vessel. Alot of the crew give her alot of attention, the fact that she is drop dead gorgeous. There has been occasions of crew members think we´re actually together, and come asking me about it. I obviously deny since I´m not the kind of guy that lies to make himself look good. I´m afraid of being in the freind zone, but she knows my intentions... help help help pleaasse !

Thanks for any advice, and sorry for the long text!

Cheers!

Edited September 3, 2013 by AngelKing001
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