The tree Posted January 27, 2014 Posted January 27, 2014 3 years ago, i was a freshman in highschool, there was this girl that started to like me. I liked her back. Blah blah blah. A week later i asked her out in person and she said yes. I was so happy that all my friends accepted her and she was awesome. But that day i went home and i told my dad that i asked this girl out, and he was mad and told me that i am not allowed to date because i was too young. later that week i broke up with her and i told her that i wasnt allowed to date. She was upset but got over it. She knew i still liked her and wanted to date her so our friendship stayed. couple months later, it was the school homecoming dance. I didn't have a date so i went with my friends. The girl i liked (the same one before) was dating someone else at the time, but he wasnt going to the dance with her. So at the dance, we ended up slow dancing and grinding together. this moment was the single greatest moment of my life even to this day. At this moment i fell in love with her, and i never wanted to let her leave. 5 days later her boyfriend broke up with her on her birthday. I was the one that came to her rescue, and i knew this was my chance to make her mine, but i knew that i still had a problem with my parents. About a month later i told her that i never had my first kiss, she said that she wanted to be my first, and not caring, i just went for it. About 2 weeks later i ask her out on a my parents cant know basis. We ended up dating for 2 months. During these 2 months, 2 major events happened. The first was when i went on a double date bowling and later that day we ended up going to her house and i made out with her for the first time. This was also a very good day. The other major event was 1 week before we broke up. It was a sunday and we were trying to see if we could hang out at her place as "friends" so my parents would be ok with it, But my mom suggested that she came to my place instead. When she came over we were alone in the basement watching a movie. the movie ended and we decided it was a perfect time to make-out.... as we were making out.. my mom walks in the room and sees us... all hell breaks loose and she was sent home and my dad had a talk with me and ever since then they had a trust issue that will never go away. She ended up breaking up with me because all we did was fight over who's fault i was. Even though we were broken up i knew i was still in love with her and could never stop. there was a time when she wanted me to ask her out, but i only wanted to do it in person because thats the only true way of doing it. it never happened so we were still apart. the rest of the year she was dating another guy and all i could do was wait. I loved her so much that i couldnt let go, so i just waited for her to break up with him. in the summer they broke up and i came into the picture again. It was near the end of the summer and school was going to start soon and i was on vacation. we texted over vacation and we were talking about some "fun" things like sleeping together, but not having sex because we both didnt want that. Well it was great, but all of the sudden, she stopped texting my and we didnt talk. when the school year started she was dating someone else. I know you guys are probably thinking she is a slut, but she definatly isnt.. This "process" happed for a long time. We talked, she got a boyfriend, we stopped talking, they broke up and i started talking to her again.. this happened for about 3 differents guys about 5 times.... Even with this going on, I was still in love with her. Love is very hard to explain and i just knew that she made me happy and i didn't want to spend my time with anyone else. Im trying to skip most of boring stuff. Then we came to junior year... Junior year started off pretty bad. i have a class with one of my best friends and its was great. But my love was growing weak for her and i still had never told anybody else but her that i loved her. my friend in class asked me if i still liked her.. i didnt want him to know so i said no. i dont. I didnt think much of this until he and her started talking and becoming friends. i didnt think anything would come of it until they started dating. this was very hard for me because here my friend was dating the girl i loved and there was nothing i could do. They ended up dating for a long time. They went to prom together and i was beyond jealous and i was the one that really wanted to take her to prom, but he got in the way. She and i talked during this relationship and we told me that she loved him. i destroyed me, but nothing could ever make me stop. For 2 years at this point ive been in love with a friend that says she loves me too but nothing ever happened because of my parents. Now it was senior year and they were still together. But not for long as 1 month in, they broke up. I was very hard for me to talk to her because my best friend was her ex and it made every very complicated, there was nothing i could do because i was still living the lie of that i didnt like her at all.. even though i love her with all my heart. At this time she didnt like me anymore and she said that she had moved on, and that she still loved my friend. later i find out that they had a sexually intimate relationship up to not having vaginal sex. this struck me and it made me lose some hope that maybe she will go even farther. there are so many times where we talk and then we fight like we are in a relationship. thats just a side note. well during senior year. homecoming was coming up and i really wanted to try and recreate freshmen year, but before i could ask.. she was going with someone else.. it was hard but i got through.. not to much longer she starts to date some other guy i dont really know, but looks like a guy that i wouldnt trust and will break her heart. i knew this would happen so i stayed close to her.. but we where still just friends. they broke up.. as i predicted. this was about 2 weeks ago and i can tell she is already into another guy. but now we come to the biggest part... For the past few days we have been texting. nothign special, but we started bringing up questions like."why do you still love me"( thats what she asked me) i would respond in a way that i cant explain because love is unexplainable. I do indead still love her with everything i have. nothing could make me stop. but just tonight.. i asked her "how to you stop loving someone?" she responded, "you cant" i asker then how she stopped loving me and she asked me if i wanted to know the truth. she said "i dont think i was ever in love with you.... i though i loved you".. this just completely destroyed me to the point that i am writing my story on the internet... Important notes: My parents know that we are friends and lets us hang, but not alone. also, i still love her. I really need some help.. i dont know if i should keep going for her.. is it possible that she could like me again.. or win her back.. i dont know... feedback would be the best.. i am broken and need some comfort and advice.. Feel free to add any opinion you feel, either bad or good. My side is that i want to be with her every second of my life and i dont want to let her go even if she doesnt love me or never have.. i am willing to live the rest of my life alone if i have to..
bubblesbursted Posted January 27, 2014 Posted January 27, 2014 I read your story and of course you are in love with her, she isnt. Thats the truth. Trust me when I say you cant make her fall in love now she had so many years when she knew you loved her. She wouldnt feel the way about you anymore. Believe it I have tried with my ex. He suddenly stopped loving me but according to my belief you never stop loving someone if you really loved them in the first place. The girl is right she didnt love you , you should move on. I know its hard but its for the best. You deserve better , someone who would love you and care about you the same way you do.
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