I cracked. And my extremely angry.

[RespectfullyAlone]

Coming home from work I had to stop by a place to get a quote for some car repairs. This place was only a few streets away from my ex's place. I cracked and figured WTH, and drove past the end of her street and looked down it. Just as I had thought, the guy she told me she was thinking about and left me for, his car was parked outside of her apartment building. In a way I knew it would be.

 

I didn't feel hurt over this, rather anger. Anger at her. That my feelings and suspicions may actually be right. She was in a proper relationship with him but never told me. Pursued me and supposedly fell in love with me. Then not even 2 days after I had gone overseas with my Dad, left me via a FB message, and told me not to try and change her mind. It was all very confusing at first, but now it actually starts to make some sense.

 

She was with this guy probably for awhile. Then I got into her sights. I was the GIGS guy!! She tried me, tasted me, then spit me out to go running back to this guy. She wasn't confused at all, rather probably just didn't know how to continue the lying and deception. No wonder she feels better and less stressed. Cheating, lying and playing myself and family for fools must take quite some effort.

 

I am angry, I didn't see any signs. I am angry she used me. I am angry it's quite possible she was still sleeping with this guy when she was with me. I am angry for the hurt I feel, for the stupid way I still have feelings for her. I am angry that such a person even exists.

 

I am angry that I even felt love for her. It was real, and I know she was feeling love in return, but this angers me so much. It would be so much easier if she just didn't feel anything and said so. But I don't believe she was faking much at least not until the very end.

 

I want to send her an email telling her I ****ing know what she did. That I will never forget or forgive her for what she has done. Foolishly I had boxed up things she had given me, and gave them to my Mom. But now that ****s going to be destroyed big time. Even the gifts she gave me Mom I will ask if they can also be smashed.

 

To make my day more complete, I even checked out her FB page. Turns out her little one had his 2nd birthday yesterday . And she is there beaming smiling away, with what looks like him probably having taken the photo.

 

Does she even remember me? I guess not. I'm just some stain on the carpet or smudge on the bottom of her shoe. No wonder she asked me to not change her mind. She's thrown all her eggs in the basket with this guy, and decided he's the one and she's going for it.

 

F*ck this woman. I can't believe how stupid I feel and angry to know I have been totally played, cheated, lied to and am now hurting as a result.

Edited January 10, 2013 by RespectfullyAlone

[andytenshi]

That really sucks man... as lonely as I get sometimes and want to feel close to someone. Reading stories like this and my own failed relationship attempts really makes me wonder if a relationship is even worth getting screwed over/manipulated pushed aside over and over again..

 

Right now it really seems like no..

[Renard99]

That really sucks man... as lonely as I get sometimes and want to feel close to someone. Reading stories like this and my own failed relationship attempts really makes me wonder if a relationship is even worth getting screwed over/manipulated pushed aside over and over again..

 

Right now it really seems like no..

 

 

The emphasis in your last sentence there should be on 'Right now'. It won't always seem that way. When you meet the right person and things just click, you no longer feel manipulated and pushed aside. I can vouch for that with my own experience. I'm currently in a very happy relationship but after the end of my last relationship it just felt easier not to bother, save myself the pain but I chose to get back in 'the game' thinking that there must be someone out there that won't treat me badly.

[portableversion]

wow what a horrible story. hang in there.

 

but like what some of the others have said, right now is not the time. lol well for me i work with a bunch of guys and im in aa so going to the bars is out.

 

im gonna be sinlge for a long time

[thefooloftheyear]

Coming home from work I had to stop by a place to get a quote for some car repairs. This place was only a few streets away from my ex's place. I cracked and figured WTH, and drove past the end of her street and looked down it. Just as I had thought, the guy she told me she was thinking about and left me for, his car was parked outside of her apartment building. In a way I knew it would be.

 

I didn't feel hurt over this, rather anger. Anger at her. That my feelings and suspicions may actually be right. She was in a proper relationship with him but never told me. Pursued me and supposedly fell in love with me. Then not even 2 days after I had gone overseas with my Dad, left me via a FB message, and told me not to try and change her mind. It was all very confusing at first, but now it actually starts to make some sense.

 

She was with this guy probably for awhile. Then I got into her sights. I was the GIGS guy!! She tried me, tasted me, then spit me out to go running back to this guy. She wasn't confused at all, rather probably just didn't know how to continue the lying and deception. No wonder she feels better and less stressed. Cheating, lying and playing myself and family for fools must take quite some effort.

 

I am angry, I didn't see any signs. I am angry she used me. I am angry it's quite possible she was still sleeping with this guy when she was with me. I am angry for the hurt I feel, for the stupid way I still have feelings for her. I am angry that such a person even exists.

 

I am angry that I even felt love for her. It was real, and I know she was feeling love in return, but this angers me so much. It would be so much easier if she just didn't feel anything and said so. But I don't believe she was faking much at least not until the very end.

 

I want to send her an email telling her I ****ing know what she did. That I will never forget or forgive her for what she has done. Foolishly I had boxed up things she had given me, and gave them to my Mom. But now that ****s going to be destroyed big time. Even the gifts she gave me Mom I will ask if they can also be smashed.

 

To make my day more complete, I even checked out her FB page. Turns out her little one had his 2nd birthday yesterday . And she is there beaming smiling away, with what looks like him probably having taken the photo.

 

Does she even remember me? I guess not. I'm just some stain on the carpet or smudge on the bottom of her shoe. No wonder she asked me to not change her mind. She's thrown all her eggs in the basket with this guy, and decided he's the one and she's going for it.

 

F*ck this woman. I can't believe how stupid I feel and angry to know I have been totally played, cheated, lied to and am now hurting as a result.

 

 

Do yourself a favor..

 

Dont put yourself into situations where you think you might see something that is going to set you off... If you never drove by her place then maybe you wouldnt have gotten so worked up. It just doesn't pay.

 

I know its hard, but just try to make believe she doesn't exist. Do anything you can to forget..

 

You are not alone, if that makes you feel any better...

 

TFOY