Guest Posted September 3, 2006 Share Posted September 3, 2006 Hi, I don't know where to begin this. I found out my wife had been having an affair for I don't know how long, but I think for at least a couple of weeks. We have been married for 8 years and have a daughter who is 6 and a son who is 9 months. She states that she wants to leave and has gone as far as putting down a deposit on an apartment. We are both recovering addicts/alcoholics. Through the years there have been times where she has started to "seek out" or find something with greener pastures and I have a 6th sense that has always caught her in this process. Through talking we would start to work things out and find out that she wasn't taking her antidepressents and this might be part of the problem. This time she states "I don't want to be in this marriage and I don't think that I've ever wanted to be in this marriage. I got married for all the wrong reasons and I do love you and care for you as a friend but not in the husband and wife sort of way. I should've gotten out at three months, not eight years." We did get married right after we both got clean and we actually met in a treatment center. I have told her to go if she wants and the only decision that I can make right now is that I want to keep this house. She states that I am just trying to keep her here like in the past and not let her go. I feel that if she needs to go she will find a way even though she can't afford it. I spoke to a counselor last night and he is very concerned for her mental well being and so am I. He stated to me that her actions resemble someone in a constant manic state. With the combination of Zoloft and her having bipolar disorder (if she does) it would explain a lot. I tried to explain this to her, but she just thinks the counselor and I are teaming up against her. I can understand that. I don't know if we will ever had what I thought we had at one time again. She says she ended the affair because she needed to start being honest with herself. And she wants out so she can continue to be honest with herself and not hold on to something she doesn't feel. I just want the best for her mentally. I don't know where this will go. She has agreed to go to a counselor with me one time and only one time. And I am taking her there to talk about the possiblity of bipolar disorder. He wants her to see a psychiatrist and evlauate her meds. I'm at a loss right now. I have a very strong support group of people who really care about me and I'm going to my recovery meetings. I'm constantly talking about this. I just am not sure how to handle everything and need more opinions. I feel that if she wants out this badly then things will never work out for us. Even being friends which is what she wants. Thanks and sorry for being long winded. TR Link to post Share on other sites
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