Really just a vent, other people can't mind their own business!!

[nellbell86]

Augh I am so over this f***ing crap! When my ex first said he needed space, I went into overdrive, let my emotions get the better of me, and tried reaching out to a few of his friends who knew him well, thinking maybe chatting with them would give me insight into what he was doing and how I could fix things. He got crazy mad at me and told me not to talk to any of them, its our business, etc. I apologised, to him and also to these friends, said thanks for your advice etc but I need to respect his wishes and deal with it just between us. Even my own friends, whom so many have just wanted to message or talk to him and blast him for what he's doing to me, I said NO this is between us, let it be. Never ONCE did I get anyone from my side involved.

 

Now its 1 month since the 'official' break up, and I am STILL copping abuse and crap from his friends, his mum, or his best friends mum (shes the worst!!). Crap like leave him alone, he doesn't want to talk to you, you're pathetic and unstable, he's told us everything, stay off my fb page, etc etc. For one, this woman and I aren't friends on fb so I wouldn't even be able to get on his page, and two, it makes me so angry that he is saying one thing to me, then clearly saying different to other people, and sharing what is between us with everyone else, exactly what he blasted me and told me not to do!! Even intimate things, like a few weeks ago I was a bit drunk and having a shower and decided to cheeky send him a snapchat, only HE would see it, so the only way this woman would know about it (she mentioned it in her last message to me) is if he told her!! Yet when I asked him he's like I haven't told anyone anything. Sick of the drama and bullcrap! I said to him I feel like I'm the ONLY stable one in this whole damn thing that has tried to keep it civil and be kind and understanding of what he wants/asked for, and I'm just getting bulldozed!

 

I had hopes that we could at least keep things civil for a future where we could at least speak kindly to each other, but all this outsider attention and drama is making it impossible. I just said to him I don't want to hear from anyone else BUT him, he needs to tell them to back the f*** off, I don't want to hear that he doesn't want to talk to me from anyone else, he needs to grow the balls to say it to me himself, which he hasn't, he's always said we'll talk again soon, I'll text you, etc. I'm going complete NC now cos I am so tired of all this when I am trying to piece myself back together. If he wants to talk to me, or tell me he doesn't want to talk to me, or whatever, then it needs to come from him and I'm not chasing him for it anymore. Augh sorry for the rant I just needed to get it out!!