Dumpee 1 Year Later

[BroknHrt]

I had a horrible break-up. 1 that lingered on for 3 months. Only relationship I have had, first love, 21 years young.

 

In the end, she cut off all contact and began her relationship with somebody who she is still with today. She changed phone number, blocked me on fb, and did not want to talk to me at all.

 

How I feel about myself?

 

I'm happier with myself as an individual than I was than when I was with her. I have more friends, more hobbies and am much more confident.

 

I grew as a person and am trying to be the best version of me.

 

How I feel about her?

 

I'm still confused. I didn't have closure and I was blind sided by the other guy. Still have my days where it gets at me. I still play back my contribution to the falling out.

 

I wonder if she thinks about me or how her relationship is going. I also dream about her quite a bit which is kind of weird.

 

I get lonely about my singleness and inability to find someone as quickly as she did, but overall I know I'm a better person and being single has given me that ability.

 

It does get better to all dumpees out there. I remember checking her twitter, instagram, pinterest, fb, whatever everyday for at least 3 months. It was bad. I was bad. I did everything that everyone on this website told me not to do. I prolonged my sadness and I was depressed to the point of suicidal thoughts. I went to rehab and all of this happened a year ago.

 

I found the light at then end of the tunnel and I get better everyday. Eventually I won't care or think about her at all. I'd say I'm 90% over her when I once thought I'd never be.

[erklat]

Congrats on your recovery! Keep the same amount of hard work and dedication

and things are bound to be great for you.

[smellysocksuni]

Thank you for this post, it was very helpful and gives hope that I won't always feel this way.

[Stercrazy]

Write down tour dreams and then do research on them. You'll gain a huge amount of insight in what your subconscious is telling you.