scobro Posted July 10, 2014 Share Posted July 10, 2014 Anyone else get that anxiety pain?It won't go away. Link to post Share on other sites
Shields boy Posted July 10, 2014 Share Posted July 10, 2014 Yeah it's a tough horrible feeling. Just got to ride it out till it gets better. You will have a big come down when the pain eases. Good luck Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 10, 2014 Author Share Posted July 10, 2014 don't really know why, I did the dumping really, because she was out screwing around. I guess it still hurts..... Link to post Share on other sites
Shields boy Posted July 10, 2014 Share Posted July 10, 2014 Love hurts and if you loved her it will hurt. You are better off without her if she was screwing around. The pain you go through now will be worth it to get over her. Give it time, meet a better woman and I'm sure your ex will regret it. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
SailorGirl925 Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 It's awful. My heart starts racing, everything seems different, I feel so insecure like everyone knows my ex dumped me. Never felt such anxiety and sadness in my life. But I know I am a good person. My life has been a series of traumatic things I've had to adjust and recover from (deaths, job loss, divorce..). This is just another hurdle I'll get over and move on. This too shall pass. Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 11, 2014 Author Share Posted July 11, 2014 yes it will and nothing is good or bad until thought enters;) Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 11, 2014 Author Share Posted July 11, 2014 Is anyone else dominated by thinking of their ex in every single waking moment.I hate waking up because its the first thing I think of.Sleep is the only place I can get rid of not thinking what she is doing or if she is having sex with the new guy at this moment....ugghh its horrible I know I shouldn't do it but I cant stop it has taken control of my brain.I will be talking to someone and im thinking about her and our relationship while the person thinks Im listening to them.: 1 Link to post Share on other sites
pappa k Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 I know how you feel . I think about my ex all day and night . It is awful I can't even sleep because I have dreams about her. Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 11, 2014 Author Share Posted July 11, 2014 My ex wronged me in the worst way by cheating 3 years ago and I took her back.Plus caught her profile on Plenty of Fish when we were together. I actually made a profile and put a pic of her dog and sent it to her catching her saying "dump your boyfriend before you try and date"...lol sad.... thing is it is the second time I caught her profile on POF.Her excuse the first time was "I knew you would find it"....lol ya right. She 8 months ago rented a room out in her home to her ex boyfriend who is now gay(apparently) I know the guy and agreed but what she failed to mention is I am now not allowed at her house so how messed is that?So for the last 8 months haven't been to her house other than once she was showing me how great the inside is since it had been painted how messed is that? She was over at my place a while back and forgot her phone I looked at it of course POF chats with guys...lol...texts.I always found it strange she would take her phone to the bathroom with her. So in March I just said this is insane cannot handle this, its so not right.We would fight and argue after this and She would email and tell me she has someone new, she emailed me a photo of her ex in her bed all when she is mad.Calls me and I can here the guys voice in the background....The first time she cheated she actually put the new guy on the phone I was devastated.....cold n evil. Found out last week she slept with her ex's friend who is 18 years younger and now she has a new guy apparently but it could all be mind games......the kicker is the woman is 50 years old???, very hot,big DD,has cash, has the Beverly Hills housewives look.... but plays the mind games big time.Told me she has someone then will say she doesn't... treated me like that I think because I have been unemployed the last year.So she would go out weekends and like a moron I trusted her.....ugghhh. When we first hooked up accused me of cheating(once while having sex) she was checking my phone, following me, checking emails, had no trust at all then she end up cheating on me our 3rd year and her excuse was I don't think I can ever trust you...(logic??).I go to her house un announced one morning and their is some BMW in her driveway she opens the door in a robe and I see the guys shoes.She actually came up with the excuse someone is using her driveway to park their car....lol Woman never drank now shes drunk partying up with these guys at Casinos all over the place.....was actually suppose to see her 2 weeks ago but she was late so I left she phoned and we got in an intense argument so breaking no contact was very stupid on my part. oh forgot to mention as well she thought I was cheating on her and tried to hit me with her car in a parking lot, an Audi of course, and has been physical with me ripping my shirt and chain off my back. Has called the Police on me because we were arguing and I stupidly shoved her aside because she was taunting me saying "you want to hit me, you want to hit me" so I shoved her aside to leave.She called the cops like an axe murderer was in the house.Got arrested and of course we always got back.It was so insane for a year I wasn't allowed near her or I would go to jail and we had a Cruise planned.So I had to make sure cops were not watching her house for me because she overacts but the consequences remain.We go to court a year later and they put her on the stand and she lied saying she fell and saved me and the judge threw it out knew we were together and she was lying.All that for drama of one night. Has called the Police to kick me out of her house when we have an argument and she wants me to leave(this is when we lived together) So much drama with this woman in 5 years glad its over but Im stupid for putting up with it but those are issues I have to look at like low self esteem Link to post Share on other sites
Justaguy30 Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 5 months out and I am pretty much the same way. Its has gotten better but yeah its not cool at all. You should talk to a therapist. Its funny because I do the same thing, someone will be talking to me and I will barely pay any attention because my mind is stuck on repeat with the ex situation. Link to post Share on other sites
Justaguy30 Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 I think that after a man has been seriously cheated on and abused. I am guessing she screamed at you a lot maybe she hit you and lied about everything and made you look like a fool? That was my situation and for the first 2 months the anxiety was horrible. Like my whole body hurt but that will go away! Just don't bottle up the feelings and know that it will get better even though you think it won't. I am so much better than I was 5 months ago but I am still messed up. Time heals all wounds. Keep truckin Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 11, 2014 Author Share Posted July 11, 2014 I think that after a man has been seriously cheated on and abused. I am guessing she screamed at you a lot maybe she hit you and lied about everything and made you look like a fool? Bang on and throw in.... trying to hit me with her car...calling police to get me out of her house when we lived together...got me arrested....took all my things and left them in the front of my works waiting area in front of my whole workplace....ripping the shirt off my back literally....kicked me out with no place to go at 4am....list goes on Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 11, 2014 Author Share Posted July 11, 2014 also thought I was cheating and left all my things in the waiting area of my work infront of my whole workplace and clients Link to post Share on other sites
SammySammy Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 Wronged you in the worst way? She didn't wrong you at all. She was living her life and you went along for the ride. You could have chosen to leave at any time, but you chose to stick around and knowingly be abused. You acted like a doormat and she walked all over you. That's what doormats are for. Don't ask what's wrong with her. If you don't want to be a doormat, stand up and move out of the way. The question is what's wrong with you to allow yourself to be treated like that? 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Offspring Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 (edited) Yeah, i had anxiety. Having a bit today actually. At one stage, i was having anxiety attacks. My anxiety revolves around me feeling like i have nothing solid to hang on to and like i have no reference point in life. I have been good for the past few days, but as soon as i am on my own, it all comes flooding back, the rejection and how i made a fool of myself, which affects my self esteem. Sometimes i just feel that she is so superior and that i am inferior and that she's a mountain that i could never get over, and that therefore, i will always be inferior (thing is, she is superior and i can't stop thinking about her in those terms because she was just an amazing human being). Meh, anyway.. I think somebody here mentioned it is like an addiction that we have to overcome. Best of luck Edited July 11, 2014 by Offspring 1 Link to post Share on other sites
love1336x Posted July 12, 2014 Share Posted July 12, 2014 I know EXACTLY how you feel! My ex is always, and always on my MIND. During the day he's slowly vanishes, but even at my highest moment of happiness he's always lurking. I'm about to see a therapist, get some help for this. I don't dream about my ex... THANK GOSH, but the mornings are the toughest because i can't text him, and tell him how much I miss him. :[ 1 Link to post Share on other sites
love1336x Posted July 12, 2014 Share Posted July 12, 2014 I get extreme anxiety attacks in the morning... such a heavy dark feeling inside my chest. My heart can ache & ache so much... but eventually when I start to do stuff, it lighten up. One day at a time... there are days when I don't want to be me... I want to be another person, but you have to bear it through! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
pappa k Posted July 12, 2014 Share Posted July 12, 2014 Yeah it's pretty bad. I can't eat or sleep I just feel sick when I start thinking about her and her boyfriend together 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 12, 2014 Author Share Posted July 12, 2014 Wronged you in the worst way? She didn't wrong you at all. She was living her life and you went along for the ride. You could have chosen to leave at any time, but you chose to stick around and knowingly be abused. You acted like a doormat and she walked all over you. That's what doormats are for. Don't ask what's wrong with her. If you don't want to be a doormat, stand up and move out of the way. The question is what's wrong with you to allow yourself to be treated like that? Great answer needed that.....Yes for sure low self esteem not working right now feel down and she definitely didn't make things easier. Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 17, 2014 Author Share Posted July 17, 2014 4 months ago I ended a toxic relationship with my ex of 5 years.I was fine with the decision and really accepted that we were not right for each other.Now I'm suddenly finding I miss her and want her back.back. Im feeling very sad over losing her and want to contact her but afraid I will get hurt again as I think she is already seeing someone.I can't eat or sleep and I constantly think about it.Is this normal to roller coaster like this? Link to post Share on other sites
HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 17, 2014 Share Posted July 17, 2014 I'd say that's totally normal.. Just leave the girl alone yea x Link to post Share on other sites
EddieB Posted July 17, 2014 Share Posted July 17, 2014 Your situation as you describe it fits perfectly with how I'd describe mine. I might not be in a position to offer advice seeing as I'm going through the same pains as you, but in a strange way maybe I can given that I know what you're going through. It's like when I talk about it out loud with a friend I feel fine for a few hours, sort of as if I've been immunized to feelings of wanting her back. During those brief times I feel fine because I'm thinking straight without the clouding thoughts of missing her. Then a few hours pass and I start wondering whether I should go back, it's a roller coaster as you put it, but I just don't know how to hit the breaks and get the frick off. Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 17, 2014 Author Share Posted July 17, 2014 yes and I am in constant pain and feel anxiety and it doesn't go away.I exercise and go for walks but the pain still doesn't go away only when I drink alcohol but that sure isn't the answer as its worse with a hangover.It just sucks that she just moves on hops to another guy and feels no pain.I am stuck in personal turmoil and pain while she just gets laid to forget about me.I would feel so un-comfortable with another woman right now.I can't even talk to another woman but she has already slept with guys and is in another relationship.Its only been 4 months??How do people just jump from guy to guy like its nothing??? Link to post Share on other sites
EddieB Posted July 17, 2014 Share Posted July 17, 2014 yes and I am in constant pain and feel anxiety and it doesn't go away.I exercise and go for walks but the pain still doesn't go away only when I drink alcohol but that sure isn't the answer as its worse with a hangover.It just sucks that she just moves on hops to another guy and feels no pain.I am stuck in personal turmoil and pain while she just gets laid to forget about me.I would feel so un-comfortable with another woman right now.I can't even talk to another woman but she has already slept with guys and is in another relationship.Its only been 4 months??How do people just jump from guy to guy like its nothing??? It doesn't matter if it's 4 months or 4 years. Some people use getting laid as a means of moving on. You were exclusive for 5 years and that's a long time, by sleeping with other people she's breaking that exclusivity and it's essentialy 1 less reason to go back. You need to ask yourself why you suddenly want to go back. Pinpoint exactly what you miss about her. Link to post Share on other sites
Author scobro Posted July 17, 2014 Author Share Posted July 17, 2014 It doesn't matter if it's 4 months or 4 years. Some people use getting laid as a means of moving on. You were exclusive for 5 years and that's a long time, by sleeping with other people she's breaking that exclusivity and it's essentialy 1 less reason to go back. You need to ask yourself why you suddenly want to go back. Pinpoint exactly what you miss about her. I think Im just feeling lonely and miss her company.I lost my job 2 years ago and have been unemployed since and that contributed to a lot of how she acted and treated me.I have an interview tomorrow so if I get the job it could be a new start for me or I may want to let my ex know I got a new job and thats a huge mistake. I am always my own worst enemy I set myself up for pain.We were suppose to meet 2 weeks ago but she was late and I left.We ended up getting into a huge fight and nasty texting it was the same old crap we would always go through.I know the relationship was toxic and I know we weren't right for each other but I guess I just miss the company and the whole relationship scenario Link to post Share on other sites
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