... I havent heard from MM for Over a month. Yes, he tries to call & i dont pick up on unknown numbers on my fone... OR if i need to pick to i get someone w/ me to pick it up so if it MM he hangs up.

What pushed me to do this was that i have been in the A w/ MM for 2 years now.... i think we mention him leavin W like once in the whole 2 years...
Last time we had a little argument was because of the fact i havent heard from him in a while & i was very stressed from everything [ work & home ] & i wanted him to be there [ Yes, i am aware he cant.. BUt a part of me didnt want to accept that...]... he talked & things were okay for like a week...

Than his anniversay was pending.... i didnt hear from him... by this stage i have deleted his number from my ph... & no i didnt memorise it... i was ill w/ heartache....& it hit me... WE NEVER HAD AN ANNIVERSAY... i know it sounds lame BUT it never really occured to me..... until now... [stupid huh?]

I was prepared to let him go & i was doing well... i went out more.. I studied more... & hell i even flirted more....Than a couple of nights ago, i had a dream of him huging me & tellin me that after everything HE KNOWS i will be there for him... ..& that i will always love him... [ which is the truth]...
Than it hit me... WILL I ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY...!

he told me that ONE of his greatest fear was that i was going to find someone better & that this person will be able to give me things that he cannot... & i would forget about him... i just smiled.... BUT I AM STILL WAITING FOR THAT DAY...

A good friend of mine said to me that the best revenge is nothing... Because ONE day it would hit MM just WHY he had the A & that i have moved on without him... I know he came back to his W because..
1. THe SOn
2. Reputation
WOuld he ever be happy? & why do i still care..

I am so ready to move BUT a part of me still have a soft spot for MM...

....... I wanna be happy Too RIght..?

Way to go, I am so proud of you! I don't have much experience in this but it sounds like you are REALLY moving on...

THIS IS GOOD!! <<A good friend of mine said to me that the best revenge is nothing... Because ONE day it would hit MM just WHY he had the A & that i have moved on without him...>>

[whichwayisup]

3. He does love his wife, enough that he doesn't intend on leaving her and the marriage.

WE NEVER HAD AN ANNIVERSAY... i know it sounds lame BUT it never really occured to me..... until now... [stupid huh?]

Yup, it does sound stupid. I'm glad you see that because he's married.

I am so ready to move BUT a part of me still have a soft spot for MM...

So, do it! Move on. So what if you still have some feelings and a soft spot for him...It's over and he isn't leaving his wife, ever. You know this, and the fact is, your MM is selfish. He just "wants" when he wants it.

Accept that you have some feelings left for him, but don't focus or think too much about him. Emotionally detach, and don't fantasize about him either. The sooner you do this, the better off you'll be. You'll care about him less, and heal.

When you're ready, in time, you will meet a great guy who's single and available.