Dedicated to my love

simona · 2nd September 2006, 1:26 AM

The intense long stare,
The passionate smile and free spirit
Why do you do this to me

It is unbearable, it is hard
This relationship has no name
for it is called ulgy and shameful

But deep inside it know it is love
a god's blessing ,so pure so beautiful

I fear it will never last,
I fear you will forget me
for you are never mine
and I could never be yours

You know my weakness,
you understand me,
why make every breath difficult for me

My morning starts with your thoughts
the things you say, and some unsaid
I know you want me , I feel the same
But words unspoken
are best than never said

Maybe this was our fate
never to be together
but there is next life
and God shall be fair.

I love you to death
and I believe in God
I shall never ask you to be selfish

Do your duties, be a good father and a husband
I shall respect you for the man you are
I owe you my hapiness, the simple things
the unconditional love you give me
there are times I will pay for asking no more than this.

Touche · 2nd September 2006, 2:13 AM

"Unconditional love"? Hmm...interesting. I would think it's VERY conditional indeed.

simona · 2nd September 2006, 2:19 AM

Whatever you want to call it ? I perceive it as unconditional , as I see things better from my side, experiencing the intensity of it.

simona · 2nd September 2006, 2:22 AM

or perhaps blinded and illusioned by love .

burning 4 revenge · 2nd September 2006, 3:07 AM

Roses are red
Violets are blue
He's bonking his wife
When he's not bonking you

once removed · 2nd September 2006, 4:01 AM

OUCH ....... but I guess your name says it all and your prob right but still OUCH!!!!!

simona · 2nd September 2006, 10:10 AM

Roses are red
Violets are blue
He's bonking his wife
When he's not bonking youToday 1:22 AM

Forgive and forget,
It always help
Because I have nothing to say
to broken hearts and betrayed souls

My love is pure ,
I have accepted the reality of life
that keeps me going
and makes me strong

The sex is not an issue
I get it often from my spouse
What matters is the love
that dwells is my heart
for the one and only
MAN in my life

JamesM · 2nd September 2006, 10:53 AM

Okay, you have accepted that he has you and his wife. You have sex with your spouse who is oblivious to the fact that you no longer love him. Your knight in shining armor has sex with you and his spouse...while obviously loving both.

You have accepted that the two of you cannot be together...why? Because you are married? Divorce happens often. Much as I am against divorce, I feel anger for the spouses of both of you. Surely they have helped cause this affair, but it is not fair to either of them that they must live in ignorance while missing out on the possibility that they, too, could have a lover who loves them like yours does. And still remain married like you do. They do not have the opportunity to win back your love, because they do not realize that it is lost.

Is this what you wanted out of life? A man who cannot unconditionally give you himself, his whole life, and his body...yet he can have your heart and body when he can fit it into his and your schedule? Did you desire the romance of "Madison County" while ignoring the fact that it is wrong?

I am sorry if I come off a bit harsh, but I find it difficult to romanticize what is obviously not fair to your spouses. And it is not fair to your children if you have them. Divorce is harsh on them, but lies and secrecy will be revealed. This will be an even greater pain, as they realize that commitments are "meant" to be broken.

And no, I am not perfect, but no, I have not fallen into an affair. Close...but these same thoughts I spoke to you were right at the forefront of MY mind.

Amazing what reality can do to "unconditional love."

Touche · 2nd September 2006, 10:56 AM

Good post, James. And calling it "pure love" is a very big stretch in my opinion as well.

stoopid_guy · 2nd September 2006, 11:05 AM

Is this what you wanted out of life? A man who cannot unconditionally give you himself, his whole life, and his body...yet he can have your heart and body when he can fit it into his and your schedule? Did you desire the romance of "Madison County" while ignoring the fact that it is wrong?

I am sorry if I come off a bit harsh, but I find it difficult to romanticize what is obviously not fair to your spouses. And it is not fair to your children if you have them. Divorce is harsh on them, but lies and secrecy will be revealed. This will be an even greater pain, as they realize that commitments are "meant" to be broken.

Unfortunatley, life is about compromise, it's not "black or white." "Lies and secrecy" are not always revealed. For that matter, a successful deception would not be discovered, so it's impossible to know how many there are. Sometimes cheaters "get away" with it.

RealityCheck · 2nd September 2006, 11:35 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by simona

The intense long stare,
The passionate smile and free spirit
Why do you do this to me

It is unbearable, it is hard
This relationship has no name
for it is called ulgy and shameful

But deep inside it know it is love
a god's blessing ,so pure so beautiful

I fear it will never last,
I fear you will forget me
for you are never mine
and I could never be yours

You know my weakness,
you understand me,
why make every breath difficult for me

My morning starts with your thoughts
the things you say, and some unsaid
I know you want me , I feel the same
But words unspoken
are best than never said

Maybe this was our fate
never to be together
but there is next life
and God shall be fair.

I love you to death
and I believe in God
I shall never ask you to be selfish

Do your duties, be a good father and a husband
I shall respect you for the man you are
I owe you my hapiness, the simple things
the unconditional love you give me
there are times I will pay for asking no more than this.

HO-LY!! Did I just read this right??

I am all for supporting the pain but this is delusional!

I wish you well in your head space!

2nd September 2006, 12:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by simona

The sex is not an issue
I get it often from my spouse
What matters is the love
that dwells is my heart
for the one and only
MAN in my life

If I have been reading correctly you have two men in your life, your husband and your MM (your boss/co worker/attorney?)

yesmaybe · 2nd September 2006, 12:33 PM

Sorry simona - I'm an OW, but I cannot relate to your poem(s) at all. To me, it doesn't sound like love. It sounds like martyr-dom.

But hey, if you're happy with your situation, go for it.

Adunaphel · 2nd September 2006, 12:56 PM

Simona,
you are feeling so much in love that you are seeing your situation as a Romeo and Juliet kind of romantic story,
please be careful not to delude yourself that this is the strongest love that you can and will experience in your life, for it is not.
It is not like you and your lover are each other's soulmates and an ill fate is in your way - it's more like you are in love with him more than he is with you, and you are convincing yourself that to be 'the one on the side' for him is the best thing you can have.
As long as this state of bliss lasts, enjoy it.
But I do hope you wake out of it soon.

movinon05 · 2nd September 2006, 1:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by simona

or perhaps blinded and illusioned by love .

You are not the first nor the last to experience the intensity of love. But your second quote reveals more that you are aware that it could very well be an illusion.

Until you come into more reality, you will not grow.

I know this because I have been there. And when you do get there, there is a "knowing". But we all have to go through the process and learn on our own. I wish you a speedy journey to get there.