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Any imput would be great.
Ok let me start from the beginning. About a year ago I met, started hanging out then feel in love with my now ex boyfriend. At the beginning we had a great relationship. He treated my wonderfully. But the thing is, is that I have been hurt alot in the past. I was cheated on in my last two relationships and the relationship before that was abusive. Now all that has left me alittle bitter and resentful of relaiotships in general. Anyways needless to say my current relationship started to fall apart. I was moody, bitter but most of all I was so scared to lose him that I never gave him any space. I always had to be with him to make sure he wouldn't cheat on me and hurt me( by the way had never given me reason to believe that he would , he was nothing but great.) I always mentioned my ex's to him and that bothered him. I was always jealous if he talked to another girl. He has lots of female friends but i know he would never do anything like cheat but it still bothered me. I don't know I guess it all got to be too much. We both started fighting all the time and he keep telling me he wanted days to himself( which is not an unreasonble request) But I just kept pushing him and I in all of this I lost a sense of myself. I was unhappy with the way things were but my unhappiness came from me not him. But all of the stuff I was doing made him unhappy and about 4 days ago he just snapped and ended it. He told me I was crazy and I never gave him a chance to be him and it was done. Well I guess at this point I really had to take a good hard and honest look at myself and I realized that I was bitter, resentful, jealous, and very very insecure. I now know that I need to change these things about me. After he broke up with me he would not take my calls or messages at all. I wrote him a letter and sent it to his house telling basically that I was sorry for everything I put him thru and that I was working on changing myself and I unstand that he needs time away from me and I need to time to change and find myself again. Well today he finally picked up the phone when I called and we talked for 20 minutes. I told him that i was not begging him to come back to me because I know we both have stuff to figure out and work on but I still had hopes that somewhere in the future we could start over again. He said he would meet me for coffee one day and we could talk. So now this is what I need advice on. I am sure my ex is the one for me. But I know it will never work without this time apart to find ourselves and do things differently. Now that we started talking again I don't want to push it and push him to talk and be with me. What type of things can I do to keep myself from always calling him and texting him and just keep the contact light for now so we both have space. I mean what do you guys do when the impulse strikes you too push someone that you know you shouldn't? Any advice would be good.
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