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The optimist turns idiot!
Hello everyone. It's me Jen again with just a minor situation, and I just want to vent. I consider myself an optimist (not always a good quality, cause ya get hurt), but now I feel like an idiot. I got an e-mail from the new guy I'm seeing after our big talk that simply said "I hope you don't hate me, I really don't want to hurt you in any way. I want to see you again." That was it. Not sure how to interpret that. Well, he called last night after being away all week-end. Actually I wasn't home when he called, and I was considering not calling him back at all until the next day, but after thinking about, I called him back 2 hours later. He said was just calling to say "HI" We talked about our week-ends. Mine was great, his so-so. After about 30 minutes, he said that if he doesn't talk to me the rest of this week (he's going on family vacation this Thur-Sun), he'll call me next week. I said, okay have fun. I just feel like an idiot, and yeah maybe a little bit hurt. I WANTED to say don't bother since you have no time, I WANTED to say, this just ain't gonna work, I WANTED to say why did you ask me out in the first place? I WANTED to say were you BSing me last week with all the nice things you said? But, I didn't because I still have some twisted hope left that he's going to miss me and he's gonna want to see me. But, it looks like it just ain't gonna happen and I WISH I would've had the nerve to just say FORGET IT, it was nice, but I need more and I'm moving on (sigh.... I am such a wimp). Maybe I am impatient, but I just think I deserve better.
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