LoveShack.org Community Forums

Reload this Page LoveShack.org Community Forums > Breaking Up, Reconciliation & Coping > Coping

So I broke NC after 5 weeks.


Coping Learning to deal with one's emotions and loss.

 
 
Thread Tools Display Modes
Old 3rd March 2006, 2:43 PM   #1
UT_longhorn
Established Member
 
UT_longhorn's Avatar
 
Join Date: Dec 2005
Posts: 397
So I broke NC after 5 weeks.

We broke up 2 months ago. NC for pretty much the 2 months, except one day 5 weeks ago.

She had blocked me on chat. I blocked her as well. I unblocked her yesterday for some odd reason, and there she was online, she had unblocked me.

We spoke. It was friendly. We cleared up some misunderstandings. We caught up on whats been going on in each of our lives. I told her Im pretty good. She kept asking if I was over everything. I said yes (even though I am not). I told her I am so busy these days. That I am excited about my new project in DC. Basically I guess I came off across as doing well. (Which is pretty much the case). She told me some of the things that she was doing, and I told her that Im very glad that she is doing so well and happy. We had some more conversation and kind of wrapped up saying if we see each other out next time, we dont have to act like awkward strangers.

The chat was good overall but a bit strained. Chatting with her is not something that I plan to do with her for a long time. I think I'm going to have to put her on block again. Although I was proud of how I handled the conversation...my emotions are now killing me again. Im not back at square one, but I do feel like a few huge steps backwards.

I guess I thought I could handle the friend thing after 2 months. but I am wrong. Im not ready. I really was doing very well until this.

Guys/girls - please think long and hard before you have any sort of contact. it really is like scratching at a healing wound. It will open right back up.
UT_longhorn is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 3:05 PM   #2
not_myself
Member
 
Join Date: May 2005
Posts: 40
yes but...

I have been split with my ex for about 3 months - mostly NC - and I also broke it today...

Friendly back and forth via email, and I feel fine, better. However - while I am not completely over him I am in control of my feelings and resolved that we just dont work - so I guess my situtaion is a little different.

Also we have broken up about 3 times over the past few years - so I guess I am also getting good at it I am also probably a bit older than a few people on here

I believe what most say about NC, but everyone is different about it. For me - it is better for me to be able to be civil and on good terms with the man I spent 1.5 years loving and caring for, then to pretend like each other doesnt exist.
not_myself is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 3:08 PM   #3
Simons
Established Member
 
Simons's Avatar
 
Join Date: Feb 2006
Posts: 113
Quote:
Originally Posted by not_myself
I have been split with my ex for about 3 months - mostly NC - and I also broke it today...

Friendly back and forth via email, and I feel fine, better. However - while I am not completely over him I am in control of my feelings and resolved that we just dont work - so I guess my situtaion is a little different.

Also we have broken up about 3 times over the past few years - so I guess I am also getting good at it I am also probably a bit older than a few people on here

I believe what most say about NC, but everyone is different about it. For me - it is better for me to be able to be civil and on good terms with the man I spent 1.5 years loving and caring for, then to pretend like each other doesnt exist.
I wonder what CaliGuy will say about this???
Simons is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 3:22 PM   #4
CaliGuy
Established Member
 
CaliGuy's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
Posts: 6,788
Journal Entries: 1
Quote:
Originally Posted by Simons
I wonder what CaliGuy will say about this???
We're human so I am not going to chastise him.

Actually UT, you did well and took a step in the right direction. Though she may have just wanted her own guilt absolved by making sure "you are ok", in a way you probably did more good than harm.

1. You showed you were strong.
2. You showed her that she doesn't have a hold on you (even if you think she does, what you proved was you are stronger than you think).
3. You are the bigger man because you didn't hammer her as far as questions go.

Not sure who had initiated the contact first, if it was you, that's what you want to avoid. Let HER initiate it. You can pick and choose what you want to respond to. That puts YOU in the driver's seat.

I fully believe in No Foolin's brand of NC. There comes a time for strict NC and then later down the road, once you have HEALED, then you can decide, should the ex contact you, what you wish to do.
__________________
...the purpose of a doormat is to wipe your feet on it, not love and respect it. - Balthazar
The No Contact Guide
So you want a second chance?
CaliGuy is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 5:11 PM   #5
Ariadne
 
Ariadne's Avatar
 
Join Date: Feb 2006
Location: Los Angeles
Posts: 7,113
Question

1. You showed you were strong.
2. You showed her that she doesn't have a hold on you (even if you think she does, what you proved was you are stronger than you think).
3. You are the bigger man because you didn't hammer her as far as questions go.

People..... Can you just be real?

1) Why do you have to prove to someone you are "strong"? What's the big deal? You are what you are. And if you are feeling weak, then you are feeling weak. Nothing wrong with that.

2) What is that supposed to mean "a hold"? I don't think that anyone wants to hold anyone in this situation. It's a sad situation. And if you are not over her then say so. There's nothing wrong with that or shame in that either.

3) What bigger man are you talking about? Who is measuring a bigger man? Can you just be polite and if you want to know something just ask?

I just don't understand people sometimes.

I must be weird or something...

Ariadne
__________________
~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~
Ariadne is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 5:33 PM   #6
CaliGuy
Established Member
 
CaliGuy's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
Posts: 6,788
Journal Entries: 1
Quote:
Originally Posted by Ariadne
1) Why do you have to prove to someone you are "strong"? What's the big deal? You are what you are. And if you are feeling weak, then you are feeling weak. Nothing wrong with that.
He needs to prove it to himself.

Quote:
2) What is that supposed to mean "a hold"? I don't think that anyone wants to hold anyone in this situation. It's a sad situation. And if you are not over her then say so. There's nothing wrong with that or shame in that either.
It's part of the healing and improvement process.

Quote:
3) What bigger man are you talking about? Who is measuring a bigger man? Can you just be polite and if you want to know something just ask?
It's not as simple as you make it seem to be. Kind of hard to explain but there's a self-respect/self-confidence/self-improvement issue here that really is of great stake.

Quote:
I just don't understand people sometimes.

I must be weird or something...

Ariadne
Nah, we're just different people and see the world through different eyes.
CaliGuy is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 6:00 PM   #7
trone
Established Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2005
Posts: 60
UT,

I am thinking about breaking NC as well after 4 months but still could not decide. I have been reading No Fool's guide but unfortunatel, many things mentioned there does not apply to my case.

My gf broke up bec she thought that the relationship was hurting us. She has issues but when you love you dont really care. She is still single, feeling alone and trying to maintain NC to get over our relationship. I respect that and i also dont want to start dating again but I also can not understand why we cant act like two mature indivuduals.

After your message, I am more hesitatant to contact. Thanks
trone is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 7:08 PM   #8
CaliGuy
Established Member
 
CaliGuy's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
Posts: 6,788
Journal Entries: 1
Quote:
Originally Posted by trone
UT,

I am thinking about breaking NC as well after 4 months but still could not decide. I have been reading No Fool's guide but unfortunatel, many things mentioned there does not apply to my case.

My gf broke up bec she thought that the relationship was hurting us. She has issues but when you love you dont really care. She is still single, feeling alone and trying to maintain NC to get over our relationship. I respect that and i also dont want to start dating again but I also can not understand why we cant act like two mature indivuduals.

After your message, I am more hesitatant to contact. Thanks
How do you know she isn't dating? Have you been checking up on her
CaliGuy is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 8:04 PM   #9
trone
Established Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2005
Posts: 60
Cali,

I am kinda checking on her, I am still friends with her coworker So I can get this kinda information.

Btw, she was 31 and had dated only two other guys befire me. One for 8 months other one 3 months as far as I could remember. So the chances that she is dating is not that high.
trone is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 8:09 PM   #10
CaliGuy
Established Member
 
CaliGuy's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
Posts: 6,788
Journal Entries: 1
Quote:
Originally Posted by trone
Cali,

I am kinda checking on her, I am still friends with her coworker So I can get this kinda information.

Btw, she was 31 and had dated only two other guys befire me. One for 8 months other one 3 months as far as I could remember. So the chances that she is dating is not that high.
Just a guess here, but her relationship issues are pretty deep. Eight months and three months?

Didn't that give you a red flag?
CaliGuy is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 8:36 PM   #11
trone
Established Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2005
Posts: 60
Quote:
Originally Posted by CaliGuy
Just a guess here, but her relationship issues are pretty deep. Eight months and three months?

Didn't that give you a red flag?
She has a problem called PMDD. Two weeks before her period is like hell with her. Her sister also mentally ill (more serious) and was in the hospital for a while.

She knows that she has issues and she is upset with it. She blamed me several times as well, but the final thing she told me was that she could never be with someone bec of these issues. She said she can not see me for a very very long time.

There were more than one red flags Cali but I guess I still love her.
trone is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 8:37 PM   #12
CaliGuy
Established Member
 
CaliGuy's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
Posts: 6,788
Journal Entries: 1
Quote:
Originally Posted by trone
She has a problem called PMDD. Two weeks before her period is like hell with her. Her sister also mentally ill (more serious) and was in the hospital for a while.

She knows that she has issues and she is upset with it. She blamed me several times as well, but the final thing she told me was that she could never be with someone bec of these issues. She said she can not see me for a very very long time.

There were more than one red flags Cali but I guess I still love her.
I'm guessing your were willing to work through the problems but she was not?

Has she ever gone to counceling?
CaliGuy is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 8:46 PM   #13
trone
Established Member
 
Join Date: Nov 2005
Posts: 60
There were times that I thought I can not handle it anymore (but never told her) and after each problem she called back to start again.

She has been counseling forever, I do not know how much it helps. She dropped her antidepressant right after we begun to date (thinking that she does not need it while she is in love) and it was the worst mistake ever.

She is indeed an angel, does not mean to hurt anyone and that is why I wanted to help her with the issues. But she does not talk to me and acts really weird when she sees me. I want to break NC but do not want to dissapoint myself by hearing her saying that she can not talk to me.
trone is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 3rd March 2006, 8:56 PM   #14
CaliGuy
Established Member
 
CaliGuy's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: San Diego, CA
Posts: 6,788
Journal Entries: 1
Amazing. I wonder what would have happened if she had stayed on the anti-depressants?

Some people are just chemically imbalanced and really need to take them, regardless.
CaliGuy is offline   Reply With Quote
Old 4th March 2006, 3:03 AM   #15
UT_longhorn
Established Member
 
UT_longhorn's Avatar
 
Join Date: Dec 2005
Posts: 397
trone...

if shes asking for time to get over you...then her mind is pretty made up. she wants time away so that her feelings dissapate. i hate the idea of them "trying to get over you", but women seem to have this gut intuition when they know things somewhere aren't right and are able to logically push themselves out of unhealthy situations. even if they have to "try to get over you."

if you've kept up no contact...i suggest you keep it up. i was feeling so good the day before. and now...not so good. its not worth it. i read your posts trone and seems like youre doing much better after 3 months of NC. I suggest you wait until you're purged completely of her from your system. Then I'm sure you'll be able to contact as friends if you then so choose.

lets say you contact her and shes nice to you, youre going to think yourself to death about second chances that probably will never happen. if shes cruel to you, youre going to think yourself to death about how cold she was to you. Contact is a loose loose situation...at least when you know you aren't over her yet.



Caliguy,

Quote:
Actually UT, you did well and took a step in the right direction. Though she may have just wanted her own guilt absolved by making sure "you are ok", in a way you probably did more good than harm.
thanks for your support. i needed that.



Ariadne,

Quote:
People..... Can you just be real?
For some reason, the idea of telling my ex that I still missed her and loved her didn't seem like such a hot idea. Maybe that would be "real" thing to do, but i don't know if would have been the right thing to do...at least for myself.
UT_longhorn is offline   Reply With Quote
 

Bookmarks

Thread Tools
Display Modes

 
Forum Jump

Similar Threads
Thread Thread Starter Forum Replies Last Post
Broke NC after 10 weeks...feeling horrible. fleta1028 Breaks and Breaking Up 3 18th May 2005 4:15 PM
BF and i Broke up - I was Devastated - 2 weeks later I'm over it? IhavenoFREAKINclue Breaks and Breaking Up 9 21st November 2004 8:16 PM
I broke it off 2 1/2 weeks ago, neither has contacted eachother, is it too soon jr15628 Breaks and Breaking Up 1 10th August 2004 2:34 AM
broke up for 2 weeks and got back together - she slept with another donny Cheating, Flirting, and Jealousy 4 1st October 2003 12:50 AM

 

All times are GMT -4. The time now is 3:21 PM.

Please note: The suggestions and advice offered on this web site are opinions only and are not to be used in the place of professional psychological counseling or medical advice. If you or someone close to you is currently in crisis or in an emergency situation, contact your local law enforcement agency or emergency number.


Copyright © 1997-2009 LoveShack.org. All Rights Reserved.