[insanelyjelous]

Hi all,

I desparately need some help, I think i'm losing my fiance.
The other night he went out with his workfriends for drinks and he called and let me know before he went telling me he wouldn't be home late.
I was fine with this and decided I would clean up and surprise him when he got home. So at about 9pm I called him to ask him to get a bottle of wine from the shops on his way home and I get no answer I call again half an hour later and half an hour after that and get no answer, then one of his friends calls me and asks me where he is and if i've spoken to him, obviously I haven't so I'm starting to get upset.
At 11pm he texts me to say that he'l be home soon and at 12pm he texts to ask if i'm awake and I ignored both his text messages. Then he called 3 times at 1pm and I ignored him. So after i'm finished being stubborn I call him but he doesn't answer so irrationality sets in and I send him a text message accusing him of caring more about his friends then me or whoever he was with and telling him that he was a liar for saying he wouldn't be home late (but maybe not in so many nice words).
I know i've brought this all on myself and it's what I get for not controlling myself.
So when he got home (about 10mins after I sent the text! I wish i had a time machine) we have the biggest argument ever. He took off his engagement ring and told me that he wouldn't be putting it back on until I sorted out my issues and here it sits next to me as I'm writing this.

I don't know what to do he's barely even talking to me and i don't blame him, I've spent the last 3 days crying continuosly and I'm getting more and more depressed as the hours go by.
He's gone away on business today and won't be back til wednesday so I'm trying not to let the depression get the best of me and try and do something positive . I've just paid for some online psychotherapy.

All I know is that I can't lose him, I love him so much, I'd probably crack up if he left me cos he is everything to me.

so any advice would be appreciated.