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NC, 5 months later...
Hi,
I thought I'd just write up a little something on how things are 5 months later (complete NC the whole time).
Background:
-6 yr relationship, through our early to mid 20s
-ended last sept. 3rd, after spending the summer trying to deal with the revelation that she cheated in april...
-ended it with grace, in each others arms until the wee hours of the night...then said goodbye and nvr spoke again
Now, 5 months later:
-no longer sad, or hurt...no more heartache
-no longer overwhelmed with missing her...i just sometimes smile about the good times when they cross my mind
-not quite ready to date again, just decided to spend a number of months focusing on myself, spending time with friends
-she crosses my mind two or three times a day...definitely well past thinking about her every minute of the day
-i sometimes worry that a long time will pass before i (let myself?) fall in love again
-i don't have any desire to contact her, and hope that she never tries to contact me again
-there was a time, 6 - 7 months ago, when i didn't want this to happen (ie to fall out of love with her)...but alas, it has happened...and i don't think that i care.
-i sleep well, eat well, and i have fun when i go out with friends...i'm back to being the fun-loving guy i was at the best of times during my relationship
-i don't think i'm ready to date yet because i think i'd still get a little off kilter if I ran into her with the guy she cheated on me with, or if i ran into just him, or if I ran into her and it was more than a simple "hi-bye" conversation.
...so i guess i still need a little more healing time...
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