Hi all,
I´m new here and I really hope you can help me!
Before the actual question I'll give you some background about me and the person the question is about.
About a year ago we had a break up or something like that
It never really was a clean breakup, she tried to stay away from me and my attempts to get the reason to why she suddenly didn't want to stay togheter any longer. And I got the feeling that something wasn't right, that she didn't really stod up for what she was saying to me... I think you know what I mean. I tried to stay in contact with her, text messages and some occasional presents. But she did not contact me.
But in october we met again, at an party at my office. Nobody knows why she showed up there at all. She also had worked there before and when she quit it was not at all at good terms with the owner of the place. Ok one of here friends still work there but most of us wondered what she was doing there. As the evening went, and I really enjoyed myself at the party paing no special interest in here, she and i interacted a bit because of our mutual friend. We started to "bully" each other a bit and started to talk casual. Suddenly she hugged me and said that she liked me to, the hugg just a bit to long for a friendly hug, no not my imagination. Nothing else happened that night but she came after me to give me a goodnight hug when she left.
About two weeks later she and I meet again, at our mutual friends "party". After a stiff start we broke the ice starting to talk a bit, as she had more to drink she become more and more physical, her hands in my hair massaging my neck etc... The party decided to go out to town. Before that she disapaird for a while and came back with her hair loose, as I like it... Then when we got out she wanted me to hold her hand, have my arm under hers and so on... When we got home again and I was about to go home I text message her to come down for a second or to. She did! I asked her what she was doing, but she couldn't give me answer, so i held her and kissed her and she did not refuse.
The day after i got a textmessage from here, wher she complained about haerdache and so on, from the night before. e exchanged some messages and decided to meet again.
She said that she didn't really remember what had happened the night before, but I told here. to make the story short she said that she liked it to...
We met almost every day the next week, feeling a bit akward and stiff at first but the meetings almost everytime finished with us caressing and kissing, no french kissing tough...
But I knew that she didn't told me everything at first. She was about to leave for a trip for a couple of months to the States and meet I guy she met when she was there last summer, he was the driving force then and stayed in contact with here as she came home. She wasn't only going away to meet him, but it was part of it.
At last she told me this, wich I pretended I didn't know. I told here that if we where to see eachother anymore, it couldn't be as friends - it just don't work for any of us! And she agreed on that and said that us meeting again made her think again. I tried to get something out f here about here feelings for me, but she just didn't wanna say anything, she said that she didn't mind being treated tenderly by me and that I was not one of many and that she didn't played with me...
So she went away and I heard nothing from here so I sent a textmessage to here. And i got an answer that I was the last person she had waited to get a message from now, (with a
after). I asked why and she said a lot had happend over there but she did not specified. I asked what had happende but she still did not specify but told me that she stayed with her "american boyfriend" while waiting to se her kin in Toronto. I had refered to him as her "american boyfriend" before she left. I asked if I missunderstood it, but didn't get any answer. I told here that I would keep "fighting" for her and she answered that it "warmed" here. Then I stoped to contact here, i didn't even congrat her on here birthday...
The yesterday I got a textmessage from here reading like this:
Then I'm here again.. Mixed feelings.. :-I I've got nice christmas presents anyway! :-) Are now looking for a "normal" part time jobb, for the time beeing. Until it's time for next trip.. ;-) Everything good with you I hope? Hugs from the vagabond
What should I do and shall I answer? And how...
Have she forgot everything we said before she left or what! If she choosed him, why did she contact me again doesn't she realise that it hurts...
Ok, this was a long one but I hope someone can help me, I really love her...
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