[howtodeal]

I broke up with my emotionally abuse boyfriend almost a year ago. The only way the he liked to have sex was very degrading. He always had to have anal sex while calling me a dirty whore. He would always say that he loved feeling like he was violating my body. I went along with it because that is what he liked and I did that back then. He even enjoyed rape porn, which I found out soon before I broke up with him.

I now feel disgusted when I think about having sex. I feel like it is violating my body.

I used to be a pretty sexual person with my boyfriends, but now I can't get over how he made me felt. I'm not quite sure who to get over this and want to enjoy even a heathly sexual relationship with somebody.

[Outcast]

If this is something you're not able to overcome by yourself, then it's time to find a good therapist. We aren't equipped to fix everythign that happens to us by ourselves.

[helena abadi]

i agree. experiencing such a thing is pretty traumatic, and professional support and advice would be essential. anything that damages our sense of sexual self hits v hard. sorry you went thru such a bad time.