my father...

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im 17 and live with my father and younger brother, when i was 6 my mum diead of breast cancer it took a huge toll out of me and my life as somone and somethign so important was taken away when i was so young, the thing is something else happend afterwards, i found out my father was gay i have talked with him several times about it and i am pretty comfortable with it, he ays my mum knew before they got together what she was getting her slef into but sometimes i feel like he let her down by being with other men after she died and that it would be so different had he not been gay - i dont know how common it is for somon to have legit kids and be homosexual...sometimes it jsut makes me feel like such an outcast...i dont know how to feel or act some of my friends use the term gay as an insult and throw it around freely which can really bother me.. just need a rant - sorry yall