[sick of it]

i want to check her myspace profile. i havent in 3 weeks. i want to call her. i havent in 2 weeks. i feel much better in general but tonight i want to talk to her. i want to tell her i love her and that my feelings arent changing. that this must be real because its been 7 months and it hasnt gone away.
shes with someone and its christmas and i know theyre getting eachother gifts (im assuming). it kills me. why cant i be strong enough to say "she doesnt want to be with me, let her go". i cant fight my own feelings.
i went to a party last night with my friends from school who i havent seen in a few months. i felt good for a little bit but that hole, that void didnt go away. i miss her so much. i cant even look at another girl without feeling uncomfortable or guilty.
i cant comprehend having this much love for someone and them not wanting it.

[monkeybars]

That void is going to be there for awhile. One day--and I PROMISE you it will come, you will all of the sudden stop--stare blankly and wonder what's missing. Do you have your keys, is there someone you were suppos
ed to call, did you turn the iron off, and all of the sudden you're going to realise that --hey-the void is gone!!!

And you will smile, go on with your day..

A few months after that, you will meet someone new, and go on dates, and actually have a great time, and get excited about the date, and about the woman, and that day, you will realise you hadn't thought about "her" at all --or even missed her, and that day, you will smile, and go on with your day....

And sometime after that, once you found someone new, and you are truly happy, and realise that the breakup was the best thing that ever happened, otherwise you never would have met this new person, and what a shame that would be...and you will smile, and go on with your day.

THAT'S your future, not the one that you are currently envisioning..so, don;t make that call, forget about her, she wasn't right for you, if she was, she would be with you. ...

Go on with your day.

[sick of it]

maybe its the lonliness...but is it normal that i have no urge to be with anyone else? i dont just mean romantically. but friends too. i have no urge to go out. im not excited to see anyone. im not excited if someone wants to see me. the only thing i still secretly hope for is for her to want to see me or contact me or even just apologize...something.

[JS17]

It sounds like you have some very obsessive and depressive behavior. You need to stop checking her myspace profile and calling her. She's not in your life anymore and you need to start dealing with that. If your desire to withdraw from the world isn't temporary then you need to seek professional help. I think it's normal to want to be left alone once in a while but if you have felt like this for 7 months then seek out help.

[sick of it]

im not withdrawing...like i said i go visit friends and went to a party the other night. what im saying is nobody excites me the way she does. i have yet to feel any level of comfort around anyone. i just dont feel normal.

[JS17]

Originally Posted by sick of it

i have no urge to be with anyone else? i dont just mean romantically. but friends too. i have no urge to go out. im not excited to see anyone. im not excited if someone wants to see me.

If this is true, you're withdrawing. I don't know, maybe it's not and you were just feeling this at the moment.

[scobro]

THAT'S your future, not the one that you are currently envisioning..

You cannot look at the future as some sort of salvation to make you happy.What is the future anyway?This future is made up of what happens to you right now.People use the past to judge their self worth and use the future to make them have hope for happiness,"i will be happy when i find that relationship(future)or "if I get that job I will be happy"(future)"things have to get better then I will be happy"(future) just do what works for you now and don't let the future which is non existant right now lead you to have happiness be happy right now with your life or if you are not happy find out why.