[ScarredStar]

My boyfriend and I broke up a month ago. We were together for five amazing months and I don't regret a second of it. I finished it as I found out that he had feelings for another girl and she had the same feelings for him. They were kind of seeing each other behind my back, but I'm 100% positive that he did not kiss her like he said he didn't. Anyone else who knows him would be able to back me up on that, as he's simply a gentleman.

I honestly thought I'd feel a good bit better by now, but I don't. He's now seeing this girl and anytime he or someone else tells me he's at hers, I get so upset. I've accepted that he's moved on, but it hurts so much. He's the first person that I've ever truly fallen in love with and I suppose that's why this hurts so bad. Since breaking up, I've lost 10 pounds in weight, I have no appetite and I feel terribly depressed. I even have suicidal thoughts at times; on one occassion I found myself on a bridge having a serious debate with myself.

I've cried every day for the past month and at times I really feel that I can't go on without him. We're still friends and were still in contact. We have the same circle of friends anyway, so I wouldn't be able to cut him out of my life if I tried.

I miss him terribly and love him so much. I don't know what to do.