[brokenman]

I have been married for 22 years but the last 5 have been hell. My wife and I have 2 kids and since the second born have had no sex life(5years). We have not talked in the last 3 years except when absolutly necessary. We have settled into a miserable semi-functioning lifestyle that I can no longer endure. I have communicated my desire for marriage counseling recently. I know this seems like a last desperate move but I don't know what else to do other than file for divorce. I can not afford to move out and I can't stand to stay around. She said I couldn't live with the restrictions but would think about it. That was about 6 weeks ago. I have asked 2 more times since with no response. I fear that she has already made up her mind to never be close to me again but doesn't want to be the bad guy to ask for divorce. She can not discuss sex at all and we can't discuss any subject without a big agrument. I believe she just wants me to leave and file for divorce so I will be the bad guy. Am I just wasting my life wishing for change?