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Trust Trust Trust...I'm going crazy!!!
I feel like I am going a bit crazy lately regarding the trust I have with my wife. My wife and I are going through some rough times lately (see previous posts). But I find myself not trusting her. I’m starting to think that I am going a bit crazy trying to figure things out. She doesn’t think our relationship can continue but when I mention moving out she feels it’s a bit hasty. She has asked that we sleep in separate beds, which we now do. She will talk to me, in a nicer then normal sort of way, but doesn’t what to have any physical contact with me at all.
So I find myself starting to imagine things that I can’t realistically see her doing like wanted to be with someone else. I have checked the cell phone bills to see if there are any calls, I have looked through her emails etc., all very much paranoia. I don’t want to feel this way but once I am alone the worst keeps going through my mind.
She has sometimes lied to me in the past about smallish things because she said that I over reacted when I heard the truth. I keep wondering about what she would do with the large things. Like I said her character is such that I can’t imagine her doing anything but I don’t know how to explain her behavior lately.
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