Put back in place

Hotdiggitydammit · 22nd September 2005, 1:56 AM

Its so easy to cast off love and tell people that there was no love so the relationship ended. I also want to add to those who say that I really don't know unless I were in her shoes. Well, I think that I do know because during my times I lost my Sh&t, I was taken back to all those instances and I saw and felt what she did. It was terrifying and but all too surreal, but it quite was torture. All I remember when i awoke from all the haze was saying to myself that I needed help. I just kept calling for help because I was do desperate and had no words, but I was lost in translation. I couldnt articulate why I needed help until I awoke from 3 straight days without sleep. I know that if you could take love and roll it into a ball of matter held together, what I envision my doing was to take all the good that I had in me and put it all together to form a solid mass and shared it with my ex. I guess I can say that I have lived a virtuous life at one point. It was all real and no one can or will ever take that from me. You know what is the worst thing in the world? It is regret. A heart can be broken, but time will allow it to heal. When you know that the one is gone, you will get heart break and it will heal. But then, you live with the constant gloom of regret and that will always be harder to forget. So y'all dont really know me. You were not there when it was as if she could read mine, and I could read hers. Just as that day when she wrote the final letter to me. I knew the moment she sent it but the telling fact was I knew she wanted to save me all the torture so that i could work. How did I know, it was the feeling of a broken heart. It wasn't expressed until the moment that she sent it. No one understands the transformation that happened within me when I met her. This I will live with forever to my intentions never came with harm. Only she and I know how true it was. The hard truth to this is that sometimes you think your invincible and you are put back into your place. How did that story about Icarus go?