[Super89Rex]

I have been going out with my ex-girlfriend for over 2 years. We had our share of problems just as every other couple in existence do. I am turning 22 and she is just turning 18 in a few weeks. I love this girl more than anything in the world. On Aug. 4 my heart was destroyed when I found out she had cheated on me with another guy from work; she was caught making out with a supposed friend of mine from work. That same night she came back to me, pleading and begging for my forgiveness. After a few days of struggling and trying to cope with the pain; I decided to give her a second chance. We were OK for a few days, then all of a sudden she decided to go on a break with me; I was devastated as I thought everything would work out as she always said we could work through anything. After a brutal three weeks of waiting for her answer, constantly contacting her, begging her, flowers, poems and pouring my heart out to her she broke up with me. I was devastated. Now heres the details, all 3 of us work together. She had been seen on multiple occasions by co-workers spending time with this other guy, holding hands, being close. The very knowledge of knowing she was doing this absolutely destroyed me as this was supposed to be time for her to decide whether or not she wanted to be with me. This other guy already had a girlfriend whom which he has already cheated on multiple times (and thus ditched the other girls he cheated with to go back to her). But anyways, recently I guess him and his girlfriend broke up. They are still living together in the same house, with a car, etc. This guy is a loser, high school dropout, pot head, drinks a lot. I don't know honestly what she is seeing in this loser. But anyways, the other day the boss caught her with him at work. He was fired immediately, and she was issued a warning; she threw a fit, and angerly walked out on her shift; thus throwing away 3 years of hard work and dedication at this job. I don't understand why she is throwing away everything for this loser. Anyways, she told me multiple times before that she loved me more than anything; last time we spoked she told me she loved me still but didn't think we were suited to be a couple because of arguments we had, etc. Bottom line, I loved that girl more than anything and would have done anything for her; even forgive or try to forgive her to save our relationship. After a few days of this "friendship" thing she wanted, I told her I couldn't go on with it as we both wanted different things. I haven't contacted her in a few days; I moved the rest of my stuff out into my dads house. Problem is I still miss her and love her so much, I dont understand why she is telling me she loved me. She didn't even call me to tell me the dramatic thing which had happened at work, I feel like I've gone from meaning everything to her to nothing in a matter of weeks and it hurts like hell. Her birthday is coming up on the 22nd, Im pondering whether I should call her or not; I told her I would and she responded "Well if you didn;t you'd be an a**hole" sarcastically of course. I don't know why but for some reason Im hoping she will come back, I want to call her but I know begging and talking to her will only make me feel worse as I want the old Lisa back; not what shes become. I told her I would always be there for her, I don't know what that means; I think this new jerkoff is what she really wants now and has thrown me to the curb like yesterdays trash. Shes lost so much over this guy, considering he still lives with his EX I can't help think that shes playing with fire(she even confronted her and punched her car in the parking lot the other day)... She was such a promising girl; going into college, good management position, 2 year relationship with someone who loved her and ws always there for her (even if she feels I wasnt, that hurts).. I dont know what to do; I just miss her so much, but she has changed to rapidly for the worse, please help