[jc]

I know I did the right thing breaking up with C (again), but I'm fighting the urge to run back and try to fix things, even though I know that in another month or so, I would be right back in the same place.

My main fear is of being alone. I love having someone to talk about my day with, spend time with, etc. I have lots of friends, but most of them have boyfriends or husbands so I often feel like a third wheel when I'm with them.

I'm only 25, but I'm scared that I'll never meet my mate and get married and have children (something that I want eventually, not right away). Breaking up with the person that I believed would be there to do all this with me has rocked my confidence in men and in love. I love C so much, yet love is not enough.

There are so many wonderful things in life to enjoy, so why am I so scared of being alone?