[Bogun]

I feel like such a loser. Ex gf broke up with me over 4 months ago and even though I want to get over her I havent yet. I hadn't spoken to her for a few weeks and for most of the time I felt good and felt like I was finally getting better. But then for some reason in the last few days I've relapsed and the urge to call her became stronger and stronger until I gave in and called tonight. What made it even worse was that her mother answered, my ex was out, and now I feel like her family probably thinks I'm harrassing her, when I'm not.

I'm so sick of feeling like the only one out of the two of us who has been having a tough time with dealing with breaking up. She seems like she just threw out an old shirt and got on with her life. And this is a girl that used to adore me and tell me I was the best thing to happen to her and that she never wanted me to leave her. Ironic that she was the one to leave.

I dont want to think about her all the time anymore, IM SO SICK OF IT!!!! I feel like I havent been happy since January when we spent our holidays together. I really want to get on with my life and get over this girl but I havent for some reason. I feel like I dont ever want to be in a serious relationship again. Judging by all the posts on this forum, people are being dumped everyday somewhere in the world. So statistically, theres probably a good chance that the next relationship any one gets into will end in pain again.