day 8 of NC but not getting easier

zena · 25th July 2005, 11:57 AM

its been 8 days now with no contact - it has been so hard not to give in!!
i nearly did at the weekend. i went out with my mates, had a few drinks, bit of dancing and flirting but when i got home i started thinking about him again

i forced myself not to come online or i would have given in and gone to his site - but i didn't

anyways i have just gone through my PC and deleted all his email's, all his pics and IM logs - feel so empty now though but what's the point of hanging onto it all??
still cant bring myself to delete his number from my phone though

does he still think about me? does he miss me at all?
just feel so empty and emotional at the moment

it will get easier wont it?

butterfly29 · 25th July 2005, 3:58 PM

Yes it will!

At the moment while you're still hurting, try to find the answer. The truth that lies underneath it all. Why were you together in the first place, why did you break up. What was it about him that attracted you in the first place? What was it that you wanted him to be but didn't end up being and why?

Addison · 25th July 2005, 5:45 PM

I know how you feel... I'm on day 9 of NC. I think that it has gotten a little easier but I do still miss him terribly. I think that maybe the fact that I am doing ok without him for right now might scare me a little. I'm like you though, I have slowly started to get rid of his things and all traces of him. It helps not to have all the reminders or such easy access to torture myself with them. For the first time in 3 weeks I actually do have hope that things are looking up again. Hang in there.

zena · 25th July 2005, 7:29 PM

thanks for your replies

am a little surprised that i havent given in and contacted him!
i know i was happy being single before i met him but is more the emotional attachment i dont want to let go of - we were like best friends and could talk about anything!

i didnt want to delete the emails etc but felt i had to, as you said, so not to torture myself and yeah deep down i know the truth is that i am better off without him! just need to keep telling myself that

i was so close to giving in earlier but i been talking to my mate and realise it IS for the best and i WILL get over him - eventually

smile95 · 25th July 2005, 8:06 PM

I have not deleted all the emails and text, but I try not to re read them either. What do you do when you want to contact them and if you pass thru the urge, do you feel better? I did NC for a month a few times and I know I can do it again. This time I will not cave when he calls me. If he calls me. Iwant to prove to myself I am stronger than this! My dreams are what I have lost. I really am not his biggest fan right now. I never knew such a selfish man!

zena · 25th July 2005, 8:15 PM

i started off reading the emails again before i deleted them but it just upset me thinking of what was

so i just deleted them all without even looking. the pictures were harder to delete tho and part of me regrets doing it, but i have to move on!

i think i feel better knowing that i didnt give in - either he would not answer my call or he would be cold towards me like last weekend and that would make me feel a lot worse - i didnt think i would be able to stay strong

coming on here and talking to my friends has really helped me not give in!!!

smile95 · 25th July 2005, 8:40 PM

I feel worse when I try and get ignored. Rejection all over again. I know that he thrives on me chasing him. I am done doing that. If he has someone else, I am glad. She can suffer now! Maybe she will not be such a push over like me and put him in his place!

smile95 · 25th July 2005, 8:41 PM

http://www.lollie.com/love/love6.html

this was kinda helpful