[geebs61]

Ok, so heres the deal. I recently met back up with an old friend from high school. Well, we werent ever that close really, but we still knew each other. She dated one of my best friends freshman year, and after they broke up I only talked to her in the few classes I had with her for the next four years. I did however happen to have a crush on her for that entire span

About 4 months ago I moved in with a buddy of mine, and he told me she lived down the street. Sure enough six houses down, there she was. So cool , we started talking online mostly at first. Her birthday was about a month ago, and she asked me what I was going to get her. Jokingly, I told her all I could afford was a kiss. She giggled and "Agreed." Her birthday came and I was out of town so I never saw her anyway. But then a couple of weeks ago she asked me if I wanted to go to a local concert her work gave her tickets to. I agreed and we went. The concert sucked so we ended up spending hours just walking around and talking. I didn't expect to feel this way about her, but the entire night I felt like I HAD to kiss her. But I didn't. Because she just got into a relationship about a week before this. He is out of town until mid August. I like to consider myself a gentleman, so I dont act on it. I'm going to respect what she has. At the end of the night we both go back to our own homes.

Shortly after arriving home she IM's me and starts telling me about how "hot, and sexy" and "smart and funny" I am, and how she never thought she would have these sort of feelings about me. And that if she werent already dating this guy, she would want to be dating me. And that she wished I had given her that birthday present. She then asked that if things went bad with current guy, and she was single, and I was single, would I kiss her? I told her that under those circumstances, yes. The next night I went on a walk with her, and she made a few references to "her birthday present" and at several points leaned in really close to me. But I dont realize what she is getting at until much later in the evening.

We continue to hang out together, it's harmless aside from the occasional flirt from either one of us. Until two days ago. We again spent several hours walking and talking, but ended up holding hands and neither of us noticing. (I think she grabbed my hand to drag me over to look in a shop window and it never occured to let go.) But at the end of the evening I couldnt stand it. I asked if I could kiss her. She said she wanted to kiss me too, but if we did, there might not ever be anything between us after that. I agree, because at that moment there was nothing I wanted more than to kiss her. So I did, and it ended up going on for 2 hours. During a thunderstorm, which was awesome in itself.

She says she means everything she has said about her feelings for me, but still wants to see how things out with the other guy because "he is great too" but she hasnt had the time to REALLY get to know him. Religiously he is a much better match for her, but I dont know what else they have in common.

From what she has told me, I get the impression that she likes me more than him, but is afraid to hurt his feelings. So I have a problem. I have my ideal girl here, the one I only dreamed about dating for years. And I feel like I can fall in love with her, given the opportunity. And she feels the same(similar at least) about me as I do about her.

Should I tell her that? Should I tell her that I have never felt like this before, and that she makes me smile constantly, and that she is hands down the most beautiful girl I have ever met in my entire life, and I havent been able to stop thinking about her, and that I wish there could be more between us but if not thats ok I would still like to be her friend?

Or should I just keep my mouth shut and try to stick around in friend-zone? I know I can do it. At least I hope I can.