[Stangnuts]

We have been together for 10 years, high school sweethearts. Married for 5 years with a 5 year old son. My wife lied to me about money and I blew up. She hadn't been paying the bills with the money I gave her. And had opened credit cards in my name without me knowing about it. She said she had to lie to me because she was scared of me. I have a bad temper and yes I did take her for granted I never really went anywhere with her and we didn't talk much. Her father came to my house and threatened me in front of my wife, son, my father, my sister, and my best friend. After that incident we tried to make it work, It worked for 2 weeks when we got into it and said that if she didn't like to be married she could leave. So you got her stuff together and asked me about 5 times if I was going to stop her. I said no I am not going to beg you to stay you can go if you do not want to be with me. So I drove off to go cool off. On my way home I call her and she was on her way to her mom and dads house wnd that she is leaving me and that she is so hurt I turned my bacj on her when I didn't stop her from leaving. This has been a month ago. After a week and a half she comes and gets all the furniture in the house, it was hers. But when she left she said she might come back but now she says she will never come back. I told her that everything wouls be different and that I WILL do better and she says I am just blowing smoke to get her back. I have sent her 2 dozen roses and she says to quite wasting my money because nothing I can do will make her come back. She hasn't called me in 4 days now and I guess reality of her never coming back in setting in. I told her I would do anthing if she would come back, I love this woman more than life itself and she is right it took her leaving for me to see that. I want to show her how good a husband I can be for her. I have never been good at showing my love but I know I could do it if she would just give me a chance. She keeps telling me that I will never change and that if she came back I would be good for a couple of months then be the same old person again. The last time she left was about 7 years ago, she left me for 2 months and we got back together. She just called me up one day after not talking to me for about a month and said she wanted to see me. And we got back together got married and had a son. I am a christian as is my wife, but I haven't been the husband I should have I have praying that she will give me another chance. I know I sound desperate but I see now what I have done. But I fear it is too late. She doesn't call and when we talk it is business and if I try ti bring us up she always says she can't come back that I will not change. Please tell me what to do I have stopped calling her in fear that I am just pushing her farther away. She says she still loves me but I don't see it.