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Well, after about 3 weeks and tons of experiences.. I have come to some major conclusions about this past year. One being that it was good my ex left me bc I was SO co dependent I would never have dealt with the stuff I had to this past year. I woulda laid it all on him. Not cool.

Now I have come to realize that I can handle these things on my own. That means a lot to me. I feel more empowered in a way, and I also feel like I deserve more than what he is willing to give. For a while I just took whatever he wanted to give and that validated me. NO MORE. I know what I want and what I deserve.

So I called him today. I was expecting him to be mad or not answer.. but he picked it up right away. Asked how I was and said he had been trying to call me. He seemed excited that I called. I guess that's good .

I dunno. I am going to keep my distance. He was talking about us meeting up and taking the dog places. Said I should go over and see his neice and brother while they are still here. Said we should meet up laer this week. Then he asked what I was doing tonight bc he was going to the fireworks show and i should go. Then he said "Oh youre probably hanging out with your family... but if not you should come" . But I said no thanks I was doing my family thing. He said ok.

Then his phone went weird. Like grown ups in a charlie brown cartoon. I did catch that he was gonna call me when he is in town this week. I think we have lots to talk about. I dont know how to feel about him not thinking the msgs I gave him were weird or even commenting on me or whatever.

Who knows but i have a party to go to so I am off. Happy 4th of July everyone.. FREEDOM !!!!!