[jovialmojo]

Well after 5 years its over. My GF of 5 years just dumped me. Should have seen the signs.... me making most of the calls... always hanging out with freinds. This morning asking for the keys back. I just threw away the keys. I guess I just need a place to vent. I moved to NYC to be with her right out of college. Boy was I stupid. I guess I was young and stupid back then too nieve for my own good. I could find a decent job until recently. She said she is was tired after waiting for 5 years and that it was too long to wait. And that her feelings have faded for me. Gave me the standard its me not you. It really been tough the past couple of hours. I called right after the break up rented casablanca and made a fool of myself over the phone. How does one pick up the pieces. I should have know when I was in a car accident she didn't even care. When a job interview called and she pick up she didn't tell me till midnight that day I should have know. The worst thing is that we had sex the morning before we broke up. Why did she do that? She said she needs to move on and that with me it too boring. At that point self doubt sets in. I am not boring.!

[jovialmojo]

After some time to think about it I can find the reasons why she would break up with me. I said some disrespectful things to her maybe it was because of the stuff she was saying to me. How do these things come to be. We use to be happy together. How does a relationship sour like that? How to not make the same mistakes again? I guess I was sort of on low contact for a couple of months with me starting my new job which is the midnight shift. I guess when she was out with her freinds and single she felt much better than with me. I guess that I need a life outside of the relationship.