[Taurus1358]

I need advise, urgently. After 17 years my marriage ended, most of what happened was my fault, there was no infidelity nor abuse but there was a great
lack of maturity on my part.

We had a great time together, I was the one who wanted out thinking that the grass was greener on the other side ( BIG MISTAKE!!! ). In spite of having an amicable separation ( with kisses and all ) all of the sudden my ex decided that she
didn't want to communicate with me again, I visit her home because I raised her son and love him like my own, her mother was like my own and that is another reason why I drop by once in a while.

I accepted her decission not to see me or talk to me even though I can't find a logical reason for it ( she wanted to remain friends, in her home I was always going to have a family, etc, her words ). When I go by the house and she is there she doesn't come out of her room not even to say hello. I know she is not seing anyone even though it's been 1 1/2 years since we separated, we are now divorced.

My problem is that, even though I am dating I can't forget her, I found out that she is the only one I really want to spend my life with, I have met prettier and younger women, but I can't get her out of my head. I don't want to show up in her job without notice in order to talk to her, I don't want to impose myself, I don't want for her to think that I have no self esteem, therefore, I don't pursue her or do anything to crowd her. I have sent a few e-mails, but, never got a response.

Last Xmas I bought gifts for her, her mom and her son, she gave her gift to her mom. Everything seems to indicate that there is no chance, I signed up for the Yahoo personals and posted my profile in there, they sent me the information on the most compatible members, the one most compatible with me was her ( she had posted hers before me ).

If anyone has a formula, a solution, please, let me know I even accept tickets to move to another galaxy but I need to be able to put this feelings to rest