Wow, I make alot of posts
Anywho...
Just wondering if some of you guys can give me some insight on how my "ex" is behaving and what his behavior could mean...
Me and my bf aren't together right now. We are going through cheating issues and he wants time to think about his decision whether or not to stay friends or to get back together. It's been about three weeks since the incident, so its still pretty fresh...
He knows how I feel, he knows I want to work at this. He says he has a hard time talking to me and seeing me so we haven't been in contact much at all since this all went down.
I'm scared his friends are having an effect on him in some way. There is a particular one who seems like he has it out for me, he tells my bf that if he saw me he would do something crazy. So whenever I do go to his place to talk or whatever, its always has to be when no one else is there. I dunno if he is concerned for my well-being or if he doesn't want his friends to know we're still talking. I have no idea what he has been telling his friends. He says whether we date (which is something he expresses often that he doesn't want to do right now, at ALL, understandable) or not, we are going to eventually hang out and talk so...why is there too much trouble for me to be there when his friends are?
Another thing that happened recently was I gave him a journal that I've been writing in for a while now. I pretty much just wrote down my feelings and thoughts, a big apology to everything thats happened and how committed I am to working on the relationship when the time is right. I gave it to him Sunday and talked to him on AIM tonight...he intiated the convo, and the topic of the journal. I asked how it made him feel and he said it was very difficult to read and it made him cry. He said it was good to read though. I dunno if it was difficult for him to read because I was pouring my heart out to him and he can't return the gesture or that he is just upset and doesn't know what to do, or if he was happy to read how I felt about him and it was happy tears. I didn't want to push the topic any further because I think he should initiate things.
I dunno how he reacted to the journal...and I don't want to ask. My gut is telling me to just leave him alone for now. What do you think is the best thing to do in this situation?
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