[Bunnylove]

I'm just here to vent really...."i want him back"...please please god or fairy god mother or wishing start PLEASE make him change his mind...I LOVE HIM!!! He still loves me too but he has given up on us! I guess I wasnt perfect enoguh for him!!! Please Daniel come back to me. It's been a year and 7 months and we worked so hard...but everyday i loved you more and that still goes on. I KNOW it's been very hard for you...BOTH of us....but i read someones quote in here that where there is a will there is a way. Have you just lost your will? I KNOW you love me. Isnt that enough people? isnt it? he doesnt think so any more and says he needs someone who stimulates him more mentally! He wants all his need fullfilled...spiritual..sexual...mental...emotiona l. Is he asking too much? I have LEARNED to learned to satisfy his sexual needs and we were AMAZING together in bed...that took work.....I wasnt all all spiritual before i met him and now I am interested in the same things he is and have began practasing the same techniques. Emotionally we love each other sooooo dam much and so he is satified there. I think with the mental thing...it takes time and we never have too much of that as we are apart for soo long. Is there not a way to GROW together as we have on the other issues. I know we are very different kinds of people being from different countries but EVERYONE is different right? I think he got scared...i found out he kissed another girl after he PROMISED me he would never cheat on me...i went ape **** of course and he had never seen me so upset/mad/horrid in his life....I scared him....and the distance issue as well...it's like because the distance is the biggest issue...anything else on top of that is too much. Its been hard for me too and I have had MY issues with his behavior with women and my jeliousy. But we have worked it through and through...why give up now when its become peacfull again? is he adicted to drama? am i? We have crossed the great river as far as im concirned..I am learing to forgive...but with patience...it takes time...now there is no BIG issue and i feel that maybe he is just finding an excuse for me NOT to be the one. Many people think he has just lost the best thing thats ever happened to him including his ex girlfriend and close friends. WHY cant he see that! I'm helpless...there is nothing I can do. He still calls and tells me he loves me...we had phone sex other night too....surley there is still a chance? the main problem is the distance and I would move there if i had a working visa...i dont and the pressure of marraige was put on us....i think because it was all or nothing with us.....he decided it was too big a risk.

I still love him so much...more than anything in the world...i feel alone without him....he is my sunshine in the dark worls....my morning thought and my night dreams. His sould is pure light and heart the biggest and warmest i have ever felt and his love spilled over to me and I felt LOVE and LIGHT and WARMTH. I have NEVER felt so loved in my life and through him i have learned how to give it too. It cant be over...DANIEL PLEASE! NO ONE WILL EVER love you as much as I do ...you KNOW that!!!honey I hope one day you remember me..we meet and you realise that love can be enough as we have SO much more...you know i'm willing to go all the way....you know i'm willing to work till the end.

I'll NEVER give up on you Daniel

I love you