[drew33]

I have been with a girl for the past six years. We are 21 years old now and have a three year old boy together. She has been talking to a "Friend" which was another guy for months. I proposed to her and she said yes. We were together for a few more months and she was talking to this guy more and more. I let it go, and I went and bought a house. We had an argument on giving up her "friend" and she didnt want to. So I left and moved into an empty home all by myself. The first week I was gone she said she was lonely and wanted me back. I went over there and conforted her and I turly wanted her back, but I knew that I shouldnt because all we did was argue all the time. So I started to ignore her and my son.

The next week I went without talking to her at all. That saturday of the second week, she told me that she started seeing her friend and that they went on a date and that they kissed for the first time. I flipped out in tears and do not know what to do. I rushed to her house the next day telling her that I love her and I want her back. I was stupid to see that she loved me all this time and I was the one not loving her. I want her back so bad. She keeps letting me hang out with her and she acts so happy with me but does not want me to show any affection. She tells me that things are different now and that she needs space to think. It hurts so bad that she is with another guy right now. I want to wait for her. We hang out all the time like best friends. I want more and she keeps trying to push me away. She tells me that she doesnt love me that way anymore. I cant give her up.
It has been almost 10 days and I still have feeling so strong for her. She has plans to go out with this other guy this saturday and it tears me apart. I do not want another woman. I want her. Another woman would think that I am psychotic because all I would talk about or think about would be my ex. I want the comfort of her being there for me when I need her most. But she is not there and it seems that talking about it only makes things worse. Its just that she rushed into things and has her safety net already set up. She doesnt need me for anything now. She wants us to be best friends but I want more. I have to see her almost every day. Afterall we have a child to raise. I see my son everyday. so I see her everyday. Her whole family wants us to get back together and them telling her that pisses her off even more.

We hang out together and today we went shopping together. She asks me if things look good on her as if I was her boyfriend. She even helps me pick out things. She lets me hold her and hug her but gets annoyed if I hold her too long. She wont kiss me or hug me back either. When I hang out with her I feel like I never left yet I love her more and more each day. When I ask her if there is chance she says I dont know.

Should I wait for her? I need her. I dont want to go long without seeing her. That is the thing, I will her see her all the time. It kills me to know that she is already with someone else already. I wish that she would all of a sudden realize that she loves me and that we can live together and raise our son together as a family. But that would only be in an ideal world. That is what I keep thinking about everyday. I want to get back together. What do I do? I dont want to replace her, why is she replacing me? She says that she is not replacing me but she wants to experience other things in life except me. We have basically been together everyday since high sophomore and freshman years of high school. From age 15 we have been together and now we are 21 and I am 22. Out anniversary of six years would be April 11, which is next monday. Should I do something to try to get back together? I feel that you never realize what you had until you have lost it. All I can see are the positives and all she sees is the negatives. I cant move on. Please somebody help.