Someone stop me from calling....... AGAIN!!!

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 8:35 AM

So my now ex called me 2 times at work yesterday. I let it roll off my back thinking.. yeah I'm doing NC and he's calling wanting me back now. Yeah right. So I just had to know what he was calling for. I let the work day go by and then I call later that night. He asks why am I just now calling him back. I come up with some excuse that I'm sure he didn't believe but I didn't care. So we talk light for like 5 minutes and I tell him that I had to get off to make another call. Gosh. I so want to call him back and talk about us. But I have to be strong and keep ( well start again ) with the NC. It's hard though. Any suggestions? Please.

_Saffy_ · 3rd March 2005, 8:38 AM

you sound like you are doing really well, stay strong and keep it up. it isnt easy....but its easier than rejection.

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 8:43 AM

Yeah, but sometimes being strong sucks.

I just wonder why he called me. I still want him back but then I tell myself... "remember, you can't be with someone who doesn't want to be with you." This sucks. We were together for 3 yrs and it's hard not talking to him about whatever. Man. This is going to be a rough day b/c now I'm thinking about him. I shouldn't of called back. I see why curiosity killed the cat!!!

_Saffy_ · 3rd March 2005, 8:45 AM

he called because it makes him feel better to know that you are still around.......that he can still pick up the phone and you will be there for him......when he feels down, lonely or whatever.

the best thing is to not return the calls, but i personally know that sometimes thats just impossible.

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 8:54 AM

Yeah. Even though I broke up with him it still hurts. I feel I had no other choice than to let him go since he didn't know if he wanted to be with me. I thought that time apart and not speaking would be the key to him making a choice. I see now that he hasn't put an once of effort into thinking or maybe he's already decided that he's fine without me. Gosh. I am so going back to NC.

_Saffy_ · 3rd March 2005, 9:04 AM

thats my gurl.......stay strong.

there is no need to be with a guy that only half heartedly wants you...............and if i repeat that often enough i might actually convince myself

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 9:10 AM

Thanks Saffy. It's good to know that I'm not alone when it comes to that!!!

I just wish there was an easier way to get past all of this. It's so wierd. It's like for the first time since we had our "talk" ( which was last week ) I'm now starting to feel emotional. I feel like I'm right back at square one again. I'll be strong... for you and myself!

_Saffy_ · 3rd March 2005, 9:17 AM

it goes through phases, sometimes you feel strong, others you feel really weak.

but eventually it does get better.

thats a promise

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 9:28 AM

I believe it will get better and that everything happens for a reason. But I just can't help but keep it in the back of my head that we'll be back together. But thanks for posting and giving me words of encouragement. It does help!

_Saffy_ · 3rd March 2005, 9:54 AM

well the fact that hes calling means he hasnt forgotten you completely, thats a good sign.......just keep doing what ya doing and see what happens.....

and let me know how it goes

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 9:58 AM

I will let you know. Thanks ( again ) for the conecern. I guess right now I'm a little disappointed b/c I guess I was expecting him to say what I wanted to hear.

But who knows what will happen. I'll be strong with the NC. That's why I browse LS everyday!!

SadAndLonely · 3rd March 2005, 10:51 AM

When my ex broke up with me, he started calling again after a week. At first it was only once a week, and then twice, and then every day, but each time it was just talking about general stuff. After four weeks he finally called me at midnight one night, after having just spent the entire day with me and mutual friends, and we talked for three hours, during which he said how much he missed me and other mushy stuff. You gotta give it time, and if it's going to happen at all, it will. Just don't push it.

I earned the nickname "Ice" from my best friend during the entire ordeal, because I was pleasant and didn't bring up the relationship a single time.

snoop_dawg22 · 3rd March 2005, 11:11 AM

Thanks S & L. I was actually talking to my friend about how I'm glad I didn't ask if he's come to his senses or anything relating to "us". But it's no bothering me. I guess b/c I heard his voice. I'll give it time and I will not call, write, smoke signal... anything as far as making contact. It will be on his end. I'm glad I was the one who cut the convo short too. I just keep thinking about him and every song on the radio is reminding me of him. Gosh. I think I'll be able to do NC. It has been a week since we talked ( until last night ). I'll put up a good fight.