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I need to start talking to her.
She waits for me after a couple classes, she follows me around at lunch, but I can positively tell you right now she's not interested in me. It's very difficult to explain; I don't even understand at all, for one. I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't, um . . . marry her if I could. I don't really want to give the three pages of background on this one. She knows I want something, she knows I'm a total creep, and pities me enough to give me chances to talk to her, but I don't know what to say. And whenever I do talk to her, I end up frowning and saying repeatedly "I have nothing else to say." I'm pretty worried about what I did today. I ignored her basically, again, after she said, "hi _____(my name)." I share a class with her, pretended she didn't exist. I have a locker right next to hers, which I haven't used since the beginning of the year to avoid her. I was thinking maybe I'd in the morning use it and . . . I don't know. Please, please, someone just tell me explicitly what to do. She wastes enourmous amounts of time on me, and I throw it right back in her face. I'm scum.
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