Lindsay,
IT sounds like your pretty young, sweetheart. It's hardest those first times you let yourself fall for someone. Trust me, boys become guys and guys become men. You'll kiss a lot of toads before you find your prince.
Just remember as your smootching all those frogs, they all hop. but when you're done kissing frogs you'll look up and there will be a prince in front of you. And THAT when it get's even harder.
Think about it. You aren't near this fella, and it makes you so worried about the future , maybe a relationship isn't the best thing to do with this far away lad. They say distance makes the heart grow fonder. But sometimes distance just makes the heart grow cold.
I say, let this one go, feel what you're feeling, and find another frog.
take care hon,
MA