I just talked to the X. We had our last conversation. He was the biggest ******* to me, while I was pouring out my heart.
He bashed what I had to say, he hurt me when he knew I was down dureing the convo. He does it to make me cry.

Im sorry but that is way to ****ed up even for me (a very patient person).

He said BYE in the middle of a convo. I deleted him for good.

I sent an e-mail that only stated.

(Thanks)

that was it....give a high 5 to me boys and girls...im at my lowest...but

PLEASE GOD! GIVE ME STRENGTH...GIVE ME COURAGE...GIVE ME MY OLD SELF AGAIN.

I'M TURNING INTO SOMETHING I AM NOT.

Dont leave me high.....Dont leave me trying...thats all I ever told him.



God...this world is awefull.

[Dion]

I guess I don't really know all the specifics but when my last relationship ended I was kind of a dick to my ex when she tried to really talk to me. For me, it was a pride issue. She really hurt and I didn't want to let her know that. Don't feel so bad....eventually your words will make it through and you'll be heard but it might not be soon. Good luck

[xxsilverdragonxx]

the word awful is too kind for this world.

[Isabella82]

When my ex broke up with me after 2 years, he said he needed to find himself.... I called right after the break up and he always said he would call me back and then never did. He wouldn't answer my calls unless I called from another number.

I even went as far as talking to his mom, so anyway he never once called me he would write me pointless text messages about the name of a movie or something like that.

I wouldn't respond right away, then about three months after the break up he calls me on 4th of July at like 3am wanting to stay at my apartment since he was in my city, we live in different cities but still saw eachother 5+ times a week.

Then his mom called me, just to chat, I went over to his house to talk to his mom, still lives with his mom, because he is in college.....anyway he was home but never once came upstairs.

Then online one time we got into it, he imed me with "I'm I ever going to see my stuff again?" I told him he didn't have to be so rude about it, and we started fighting. I asked him why he lied to me all the time, and how he could do this to me, he was such an Ahole, he said that I brought out the worst in him, that I would bring out the worst in anyone.

I told him he was the only thing good in my life, and he said that I was too much to handle, and that we were never good for eachother, and that it was all my fault that we broke up. He never once said this to me, or hinted this stuff to me when we were together. I told him he used me for sex, right before we broke up we had sex.

He said I used him for his money. The list goes on and on about how rude and mean he was, when he knew I was hurting, he didn't need to make me feel more like crap.

Then a few months later he calls acting like nothing happened, telling me about how his friend is selling his car......the car that his friend has is my favorite car....anyway wanted to know if I was interested, since I told him mom my car was giving me problems. How wierd to be so mean to me, tell me he hates me and then call me about a car.

That was about 3 months ago and I havent heard from him since. I don't think I ever will. Just wierd how they break up with you and they don't call you ever again.... I would consider this situation as him never calling me, when he did it was for such strange reasons.

I know how you feel, I feel like I need closure.

[daphne]

aw come on guys. awful? ONLY TEMPORARILY I promise. I remember the black days vaguely and they don't hurt anymore. i now deeply regret allowing one major c**k sucker to take that much time and joy away from me and my life. that will never happen again.

we live in a beautiful world. every minute you forget it is a minute wasted.

[imokurnot]

My ex tries to hurt me all the time. In her mind if she sees she has hurt me in some weird way she equates that to me caring. Because in her warped mind, if I am upset I must care. People that aren't confident in their decisions or not confident in themself have to make others hurt and can never be polite or at least never stay entirely polite.

[Isabella82]

Originally posted by imokurnot
My ex tries to hurt me all the time. In her mind if she sees she has hurt me in some weird way she equates that to me caring. Because in her warped mind, if I am upset I must care. People that aren't confident in their decisions or not confident in themself have to make others hurt and can never be polite or at least never stay entirely polite.

That is an interesting way to put it. I mean if you didn't mean anything to them and they didn't care they wouldn't even care enough to put up a fight. Think about it, have you ever had a fight with someone that didn't mean that much to you. I have and I usually don't say anything because I just don't care enough to defend myself because it won't affect me either way.

The last fight I had with my ex was on aim and it was an argument match. He would say something, then I would. We are both very fast typers....and this went on for about a half an hour before I said you know what have a nice night and signed off.

I mean if he didn't care at all or it didn't affect him he would have just signed off immediately. I really don't know why I didn't think about that before.

[Isabella82]

Originally posted by daphne
aw come on guys. awful? ONLY TEMPORARILY I promise. I remember the black days vaguely and they don't hurt anymore. i now deeply regret allowing one major c**k sucker to take that much time and joy away from me and my life. that will never happen again.

we live in a beautiful world. every minute you forget it is a minute wasted.

Thanks for the encouragement, I hope one day I feel the same way. And I will actually met my soulmate, and if not be happy on my own.

[imokurnot]

Exactly, if they didn't have feelings for us they wouldn't need to hurt us at all. They wouldn't say or at least my ex does, that she is "in love" with her new guy. She wouldn't have to say it because she would be confident that she has no feeling for me and I am not an emotional threat. You ever say really hurtful things to people that you don't give a rats ass about? I don't lol