[ross2090]

This is my dilemma. My ex and i broke up alittle over a month ago. We both are still crazy about each other. i think she is still crazy about me because when she was online she would want me to be online too. we live far apart so this is the only why we could communicate with each other. she says she is still stuck on me and that I'm a dream that has been lost. The reason why we broke up was because i lied to her about my friends knowing we were together. It seems like she cant forgive me for it even though in the relationship i forgave her for cheating on me twice. It took alot of work and time for me to get over that but i gave her that chance. she tells me she needs me and wants me real bad. this causes problems with us trying to be friends because she just wants to be friends for awhile. when she was online it was like she was trying real hard not to get to attached to me. she wouldn't talk to me much and i had to lead all the conversations. i asked her if i had a chance in getting back with her and she said i stand more than a chance. What does she mean by that? i don't understand her right now and she wants me to still support her like i always have. she really doesn't have any interest in any other guys. I asked her who she would miss most while she was at home in reno where she cant get online and she said me. she said she is trying to find herself right now and that i should wait. also she is very worried that i might find someone else and is as jealous as ever.

She likes this web site gaiaonline and even wanted me to make a character on there to post on the forum with her. this summer she is even going to attend the same college as me for a couple of years. she told me how much she loves me and that she has never loved anyone like me but yet at the time she is afraid to get to close. I just want to understand what to do. I'm crazy about her and she says she has forgiven me for my mistake. It pains me that i did such a thing. I love her so much. I have asked her repeatedly to let me go because i cant let go of her yet she refuses me that.

If you have any other questions pertaining to our relationship or to clarify something i have said or to gain more understanding feel free to ask me anything on it and i will answer honestly so i can truly understand what is going on.

[innocntlisy1981]

sounds like she dosent want u rite now but she dosent want any1 else to have u either so she is leading u on in tha time been til she works out what to do for herself i cant believe she is angry bout what u did its no big deal compared to what she did to you.

[ross2090]

so then is it possible that she is buying her time with me to wait till she finds another lilly pad to jump on so to speak. in another words keeping me around to fulfill her needs until she can find someone else can because I'm still her bf in every way but name.