[bleedinglover]

[font=courier new][color=darkred]What do I do?

I've been seeing this guy for a little over eight months now. We had gotten back together after a while of not talking. We had broken up a long time ago due to my many illnesses at the time. He was 17 and I was 15. I am now 17 and he is 19.

He stayed with me as long as he could and he loved me so much. He, being a young man just entering his senior year in high school, having to think about the next year in college, just couldn't take what was happening in my life. Yes, it broke my heart, but I got healthier and worked hard to do so.

About nine months ago, we began talking again. Every feeling that we had for each other came flooding back to us, this time, without the medical and mental issues that were present in the past. My parents, not approving of him, forced us (if we wanted to see each other) to sneak out of our houses to see each other.

He now lives in a dorm room, but comes home on the weekends to his parents' house. His parents don't have a problem with me, but it was safer to keep them out of the picture. So for eight months, we snuck out to see eachother at nights. There was a lot of risk involved and all, but it was his idea. He begged for me to agree to it in the beginning.

Eight months, almost every saturday or friday night, we made love (for a better choice of words). Recently, actually about 3 days ago, he sent me an e-mail saying that he just wanted to be friends (after he had told me how incredible it felt to talk to me, be around me, to touch me ... how too overwhelming it was to ignore it) and that he didn't think he was well enough to be in a relationship at this point.

He said he was sorry if he hurt me and he still wanted to talk to me. He also claimed that he knew I would be alright because I'm so much stronger than he is (that is what he said).

I hurt so much and I love him so much. He's blocked me from AIM (aol instant messenger for those of you who don't know) and hasn't talked to me in three days.

What do I do? I know he still cares, but why doesn't he talk to me? What should I do? Should I just try to forget about him and what went on between us? HELP ME OUT!!![/color][/font]

[Zoot]

Originally posted by bleedinglover
Eight months, almost every saturday or friday night, we made love (for a better choice of words). Recently, actually about 3 days ago, he sent me an e-mail saying that he just wanted to be friends

You were making love....he was having sex. It's over for him. I don't care how you read between the lines or into what he last said....that was all crap. Chances are....he isn't going to be much of a friend to you either.

This is one of those big mistakes you make when you are vulnerable and believe words instead of following your brain. It's gonna hurt awhile. Your gonna regret it awhile. And one day.....it'll be history. Till then.....hold your chin up and keep going.

I wish I could post something more romantic.....but from experience....that would only be lying to you.