[I Survived]

I thought I had a pretty good marriage. But there was a time when my husband didn't feel good about himself and he didn't think I loved him. Along came the other woman and he was ripe for the picking. He carried on an internet, telephone relationship with her for six months until I found out. It's been six months since I found out and it still hurts. She knew he was married but that didn't matter to her. I can forgive him because I know that he is sorry but I cannot forgive them for making a fool of me. All that time, I thought he didn't love me because of something I had done when all along he didn't love me because of her. I thought he was so angry at me for being inattentive. He had her to talk to, about me, they made plans to be together. Future plans. She would leave her husband, and he would leave me. Why didn't he go to her? I don't know. But he stayed with me. He says he's sorry and I can forgive everything but being made a fool. It hurts so much. Can I get beyond it? Can I accept what I have after discovering the lies, the deceit. What did those vows mean? I'll love you until something else comes along. If I hadn't been a strong woman, I'd be dead by now. If other women only knew what pain they caused when they mess around with married men........