[katty]

I said an extra prayer or two for each of you last night. My thoughts and prayers have been with you lifestyle1 as I know you are having a hard time coping with Jackass moving out. opps sorry about that. Just wanted to check on you and see if you were doing ok. I guess it gave me somethng else to think about other than my ole sorry life. I am trying just as you are to move on and put my b/f in my past, its hard to do that though when you really love someone. Anyways just wanted to shout hi and tell you that you are being much to hard on yourself so how about thinking about all the good things you have done for your children. I know there is bound to be plenty. I don't think you have done anything that all of us have not been guilty of at some point in our life. Love will make you do crazy things sometimes. After the fog clears you start thinking about all the things you allowed to happen, etc. but know that this is normal. Take pride in the fact that you are a wonderful woman who is raising up remarkable children. You will be ok, I keep telling myself that I am going to die without Blaine but I know thats not possible. If you ever need to cry or vent to someone and you feel as if your friends and family are tired of hearing about it, give me a call or an email and we will cry together. I know that I have gotten to the point where I don't even discuss my feelings of sadness with family or friends b/c I feel like they are tired of hearing about it. I am sure that is not the case but I just wanted you to know that I am here if you need someone to just listen. I realize I am completely across the US but whats the point of me having a long distance plan that covers anytime, anywhere, if I don't put it to some good use. Stay strong and know that you are in my prayers. Have a great day with your kids. Kat