I was making a list of things to do and I also looked at my last list of things to do (you know, short term,medium term an long term). Well, it is always half the things that I put down that are done.
Then I was thinking what else am I doing that's ... well... not according to how I want to live my life ('cause there is a pretty big difference between how I want to live it and how I am actually living it).
So there it goes.
Things I am addicted to:
No.1. - coffee. I just love it. It may pass one day or twoor three without it, I simply couldn't give it up. Tried even the decoffeine coffee. Sucked. there's nothing like the real thing. And if I drink it when I'm not tired, I turn into the nervous, relly excited sometimes really pissed off beast.
No.2 - chocolate. I don't eat it every day. I don't eat it every week. But I just CAN'T give it up.
No.3 - reading for my own pleasure. That's a terrible thing. I mean, yeah, I read, but only litterature. I seem to have the hardest of times to convince myself to read for school (unless it's subject that I particularly enjoy).
No.4 - stay on the internet too long. The same problem as before. I sometimes check out sites with news, but mainly... it's loveshack!
No.5 - stay on msn with my bf waaaaay too long. We don't see eachother that often. I know I could use that time, those hourse in a more productive way. But then, I could simply give up other useless things I do during the day tobecome more productive. Anyway, just a thought.
No.6 - hair style products. I am a compulsive buyer. Right now I keep it under controll, but it's crazy what I do to myself. First of all, each 5 months or so I change the look. I either try a different tone of color, a different hairstyle, and I end up buying tones of products for hair care. Thanks Lord my hair is quite healthy. And.... at times I get so sick and tire of everything that I don't use anything. Because if I use all the mouse, the masks, the sticky stuff that I buy, I'd have to wash it like every other day. And I have long hair, a lot of it as a matter of fact and I get so bored to just do it so often. So I spend money, I have the products and... I don't use it. Or very rarely.
No.7 - the same with body care products. I don't have the patience to put every day after I shower the 3 body lotions etc etc. It will simply go away tomorrow, know what I mean? Why oh why do I buy it?
No.8 - buying ear rings. I don't buy earings all that often. I buy it because I need it. BEcause.... I loose it all the time. It drives me crazy ! And please know that I am very picky about MY ear rings.
No.9 - I quit diets. I have only once in my life gone through with one, it was a total life change, lost more that 15 pounds (not like I needed it, I simply was very curious how it was to be really skinny). I have a normal weight but, as most people, I could use some pounds off. I cannot make a schedule and respect it. That's why I try to vary swimming with jogging with some aerobics. But diets.... Iam addicted to starting new stuff and quitting. soI simply decided to cutt off greasy stuff an eat healthy. I love veggies, I hate fruits. But then it is the number 2 problem, plus, I don't always feel like exercising.
I guess it all makes me a slave of my own inconsistencies and I shall die being a hedonist. This year I have promised myself to change. God, it is an effort beyond belief, I am way too free to have to put up with a shedule on my free time. And I feel that this is blocking my personal development.
I simply cannot convince myself to change. I do whatever I want, when I want it, if I want it. Thanks Lord I am bright enough not to have totally screwed up my life, I have a good metabolism and some very understanding
friends.
No.5 - stay on msn with my bf waaaaay too long. We don't see eachother that often. I know I could use that time, those hourse in a more productive way. But then, I could simply give up other useless things I do during the day tobecome more productive. Anyway, just a thought.
Yes!
I need to give up internet communication in favor of working harder. I just do.
1. playing video games
2. reading books, seems like I live at the library
3. chewing Big Red gum all the time
4. not getting fresh air (staying in the house)
LS when I'm supposed to be doing schoolwork or working at my internship
*SUSHI*
Reading for pleasure when I should be reading for school
Coffee
Eating in general
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