I am new to this but don't know what else to do!!!! i have been married almost 13 yrs. Just found out 2 days ago husband cheating again!!!

i am very hurt he was sorry for about 15 sec and now blames me cause i won't kiss his butt i would think it should be the other way around!!!! i feel like i am going crazy!!! treats me very bad rubs it in my face and says it will happen again!!!! i want out but it's hard i have 4 boys and i do love him but the hurt is too much i wanna give up on everything!!!! Plz help

he is cheating with females u might get wrong idea by title