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As many of you already know about my b/f and his mental disorders.

I have tried everything in my power to help him with his problems but he is so up and down all the time I feel like I will never get anywhere with him. He is Bipolor and is having a Manic Episode that has lasted for about a month. Last night I tried to admit him in to a mental institution and he acted like he was fine and didn't get admited. this morning he asked me to admit him after all the drama last night. I love him so much and hope the best for this man, but I cannot live like this anymore his disorder is controlling my life and he refuses to take control over it.

I wish everything would just go back to normal like it was a couple months ago, i look at him now and I don't even know who he is. I can't sit around and wait for him to snap out of it bacause I have to worrry about my child. He is constantly blamming everyone for his problems, and he won't take control over his life. He blames the war he was in for everything but refuses to go to the VA and get help. He really want's to end his life.... I know he has a plan.

The man I was once so madley in love with, the man I wanted to marry and live happily ever after with no longer exists.. I feel like he has died. and I am afraid to leave him now in fear he will wake up from his MANIA and kill himself....

I just don't know what to do.